I made a speech about her. I wrote about her in blogs, for the sake of me letting out what I feel towards. I even had her as my inspiration to write the fanfic I wrote, and am continuing to write. So this blog is a confession that only us aff members should know. It's like a secret between the group. I'm writing this to let out what I feel. My fangirl moments and all that stuff. 

What do I like about her?

I like her smile. Her laugh. Her small gestures. Her stuttering moments. Her fond of skinship. Her ways of talking. And simply her, being her. What I like about her most is when she's just herself. I didn't know I was this observant towards her. I mean, I know I'm observant, according to my club mates before, but when it comes to some of my friends, I wouldn't even notice their habits.i don't know hers that much but I know some things she does constantly.

How does she differ from my past girl crushes or even guy crushes?

Before I continue, I'm a girl. Not straight though. I'm bi and I'm proud to be one. I don't want others to change who I am anymore. So back to the question. I have no idea. Do you know the feeling of being so hungry then you eat. It satisfies you and makes you happy. That's how I feel towards her. It's like my instincts are kicking off. Telling me, yeah, this is the one.

My feeling towards her started from a small interaction. You see, we're classmates but we don't talk cause we don't know each other, at that time. For the first time, we actually got to have a small conversation. I felt a spark towards her suddenly. After that, I got distracted. In class and in everything I do. My teacher knows, I told her. She said make her an inspiration. So I tried. We became friends. The feeling of distraction lessened a lot. 

So now, the only feeling I'm scared of is her knowing. I bet she knows. But she's just being nice and easing the awkwardness. That's what I think though.