Alright.

So, I got tonnes of work to do: assignments, online quizzes and tests, preparation for speaking examinations, you name it. First year university life at the moment, for me, is getting close to the peak up to the top of the slide for the downward slope. Well, at least, the time is. My studies aren't really catching up.

As the title of this blog suggests, I'm getting motivation to do things but not for the things at this particular time. I should be focusing on my studies to try to aim for good grades, especially since I'm working on towards changing degrees next year and I really need a good score for my application to be accepted. Thing is, rather than towards my studies, I'm getting motivation for writing instead.

Well, both reading and writing. And the occasional watching of shows and videos, whether they be on TV or the wonderfully pocketed "television-like" device that nearly everyone of the world's got, my phone.

I've read so many fanfics in only a week and there's still a lot more saved in my library tab in Wattpad. I've subscribed to countless (both ongoing and completed) fanfics in AFF, and the genres don't even matter to me as long as the summary catches enough percentage of my interest bar. I've watched so many gaming videos under the YouTube channel HatFilms that I could probably hum any one of their numerous spontaneous jiggles that they freestyle around 70-85% of their videos (tbh, they freestyle amazingly). I've also made it a habit to watch TV on Monday and Wednesday evenings because my favorite shows on television are on (Have You Been Paying Attention is an awesome live game show. Heroes is an amazing sci-fi, action, and suspense television series, my goodness.)

These don't include the numerous times per day that I go on social media, each of which take about 5-15 minutes of my time. Neither do sleeping, eating, taking a bath, etc.

Where does studying fit in at the moment?

Absolutely nowhere.

Well, not really.

I could just ditch social media. Maybe skip a few of my favorite shows for a fwe weeks to study. Skip on a few videos from HatFilms as they're always going to stay in YouTube once uploaded (unless some circumstance happens). The fanfics in my Wattpad can totally wait, too, not to mention the ones in AFF.

But it's seriously easier said/typed/written than done.

Everyone knows this feeling.

That feeling of needing to do things but having no motivation for it.

Or the feeling of needing to do things but having no motivation for it, and rather having motivation for something else that isn't of priority of the moment.

Did I mention that feeling of needing to do things but wanting to just sit there and contemplate on life?

These feelings: I feel them every day.

Every day.

I need to reorganize my life.

Alright, I must try to push myself.

Might go on hiatus.

...

Will probably go on hiatus.

72%.

Go, me.