I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for suddenly discontinue my story. I know it's seriously non-ethical especially when I keep telling you guys I would try and continue and update regularly like before. I know some of you will be so mad, and some will be confused. Some won't care, but still I feel the need to tell you guys.

Cut the long story, I have bad experience of relationship before. And the result wasn't pretty. I keep having anxiety attacks and all that things. To even have someone opposite gender stands near to me makes me scared and make my head hurts. Like. A. Lot. I once almost cried at uni because of that.

Sadly, I keep this for myself and never talk about this to my parents. and for the result of it, I now just can't do that.

And sadly, when I thought just leave it and mask it as if it doesn't affect me anymore would do miracles, it just didn't. It gets worse tbh.

Funny.

I never admit this to anyone before, but, for a few days, I keep hearing voice in my mind.

Saying actually everything's my fault. I'm such a failure. I'm a mistake.

I'm not worthy.

And funny.

Because this site is my runaway. But it doesn't work anymore.

Funny, isn't it? When you thought you had won, but, no, you failed right from the start.

So... I don't know. I just can't continue to write anymore. At least not until I feel better. Much better than this. And I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

For, again, being a failure. Here.

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blue_ALV #1
this is not blue but his fiancé. I'm sorry he is not here to comfort you because he already passed away. But l am sure if he was still here, he would not want to her you call yourself a failure.

get well soon
nacia90-16 #2
YOU ARE NOT a failure >o< don't think like that about yourself!!! I know that you are caring person - I remember how you asked to pray for your friend health ^_^ don't worry about story - you and your well being is more important ^_^ please take care of youself and find someone to talk to - it may sound hard to do but it is the best way to heal you problems - especially talking with familly or your best friends really helps - I know that most people think that they don't want to be burden for them but the truth is there is no better thing in the world then being able to help your beloved ones - so please always trust in your familly/friends and let them help you ^_^
AtomicFlea #3
Just care about yourself until you're good again. Don't worry about nothing more, not this page, nor the story. You're more important than a fic, the story can wait and we can wait too.
Min-Soo #4
It's right really. Don't worry about that...
Mitsuki_Love #5
It's alright if you need time to write or not to. Your health is more impotent then a story, the best thing you can do is gain your happiness by spending time with the people that you feel love and care. Also tell the people about your issue, mainly to the one who will care the most about you. Hope you get better ~ Hwaiting <3
buu4me #6
It's ok..........just take your time............
asuka2507 #7
i hope time would heal u. u need time for yourself and then again, as much as it hurt to know that u discontinued this ff, i can more the person who writes it. im not sure if hearing voices would makes it sound u need medical treatment, if u do need them, i hope u go early, talk to ur friends or maybe asked your parents to accompany you. i cant say much about relationship problems cos ive never been in one but seen so much around me. so dont just keep it to yourself cos it would hurt u more... if you need someone to talk to, we are always be here... so dont give up on urself just yet. cos this is just the beginning... hwaiting~♡
ImaiYagami2107 #8
ah, it's a good story..
it's okay! :3 take your time to heal yourself. aww, you need to more open with your parents, are you that introvert? It's hard for you right? Don't do anything that will make everyone worried, tell your story with someone you can trust because I know that your problem is serious. Fighting!
You're not failed, you're just begin your new story from bad situation... Even I'm not your bestfriend or anything, just let me know that you're okay next time.
Oops, it's too long, sorry ><")
Umin92 #9
It's okay, now its your time to heal, try to have fun as much as you can.

I know I can do nothing much, but feel free to talk to me if you need someone to talk okay!!!

be strong!
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