Did you guys miss me?
Ahaha I can't say that I'm back yet...I'm home for a few days and then I'm going back to the capital (That ed up big city that I used to like before it was time to move there) Look at me, look at me...this post will take me a lot of time to write because I feel like crying every time I start talking about Sofia (the capital) or mention crying or my family *eyes filled with tears already*

And I'll appreciate it if you really take the time to read it because writing this post is really hard for me...And I don't even know why I'm writing it. I think I just need to share *break time because...on the verge of tears*

No, I didn't want to worry my family with this AGAIN...but why am I being like this recently?
I hate this time of the day - 18:00 to 19:00PM...
I start worrying about nothing and I start crying for no reason.

Do you know what's the worst part of it? When I go back to Sofia...my mom won't be there to hug me...or tell me that everything is alright....
I can't even talk while crying....And the feeling wouldn't leave before I cry everything out....

Could it be that "Seasonal Affecive Disorder" I'm getting upset when the sun starts to go down...I don't know.

But Jong said he cries a lot lately because of that... And I can tottaly imagine how he feels because DAMN I cry a lot lately as well.
Poor Jonghyun,,,,
WTF Now I'm crying because I don't want Jonghyun to cry.....And because I don't want to feel sad...but this made me sadder and I started crying again.

I think I'm jealous....The people who live in the capital have their families beside them....they see them every day, they're in their own homes and are happy because they don't have to move away when it's time to go to university. I won't be able to see my family this often...I want to stay home...DAMN I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO GO STUDY ENGLISH.

I wanna stay here...Non-educated, single, unemployed and alone forever....

And on top of all....I'll be SO BUSY...
I'll have to read 5 books + one that I'll get to choose and then analyze.

Ugh....
OK...that's from me...I hope you didn't get annoyed by the long post. I won't re-read it because I don't wanna start crying harder.

I'll just go and hug my mom now.

Bye.