ashafdhahdhafa i'm totally frustrated!! or was... well, today i finally got over it but it was awful. i hate it when i wanna write something but some extremely idiotic sequel of another thing rolls in my mind. it's been that way for two days now. so i decided to get rid of it. 

i was writing a Kyu fic... that later seemed more fit for starring Siwon... but then it took such an awful turn that i was... ashamed... yeah, that's fit, i laughed at the fic i wrote and thought it's soooooo stupid... i still think so. i usually stop writing when i encounter an epic fail like that; but this time, the story just kept evolving in my mind, getting more and more retarded each time, i had to write the original version and get it out of me. but such a disgrace on my fanfictions... it's so shameful. when it comes to writing all i can be proud of is my short fanfics, if i get an epic fail at those then what am i? that felt so bad -_-

but after that, now i'm writing a Heechul fanfiction. it's incomplete, i write at school after all. i hope it'll renew my self confidence when i finish it. and i've been too shy to write for a few days now, i think haera will murder me cuz i didn't write the sequel of her story... i just can't, you know? sometimes i just can't do that. if i ever feel like that i promised to write the rest; but i feel... i dunno, not in Donghae mood lately. maybe, just maybe, i might force myself to write it even if i don't want to if she gives me what i want, hoo hoo~ OwO

oh, have i told you guys about my tumblr?http://poison-ed.tumblr.com/

guess i need to study now. stupid lessons. -_-