What's been going on
I'm sorry I dropped off the grid, guys. I love writing, but I'm mentally exhausted almost every day; I think I might be depressed. All kinds of conflicting thoughts have been running through my head and some days I can't take it and end up cutting even though I know I shouldn't. I've noticed a theme of my characters wanting to die in nearly all my stories; I keep trying to fix that, but it pops up again and again. A huge reason why I keep disappearing from my fics is because I don't know how to fix them and have them not be so damn depressing. My mood keeps taking over my work. There are other reasons too, and they just keep piling up. I want to write, I love writing - I just keep feeling sorry to you all that I'm so useless all the time and can't seem to finish much of anything, or when I do, it's taken like three months to do it. I'm trying. My efforts look pretty pathetic, but I'm trying.
It's not that comments asking for updates bug me or anything, so don't feel bad about that - I find them very cute and uplifting! I just wanted to explain myself, mostly because I'm disappointed in myself for being this way.
I'm really sorry.
Not sure how these blog posts work exactly, as it's my first time writing one, but I'm hoping you guys see it. To anyone who's written one before, should I post a link in my fics so everyone can see it or is this enough? I'm actually terrified to post this; it's really embarrassing admitting to making mud, but here goes nothing.
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