Hello everyone!

I'm pretty sure that you guys don't even remember me lol. For those who don't remember me, I'm Michelle. First of all, I'm very sorry for just leaving, especially to those who I made commitments to (graphic shops, etc.) I left around I went back to school (and I’m writing this message when I’m starting school oml) because I wanted to actually make an effort on my studies, my friends and my family. Back then, AFF kept me so busy, I didn't want to leave the house to go do stuff with my friends or my family. I also noticed that my grades weren't that good as before. I know, I was like, 12 y/o back then, and I was already worrying about my grades??? I'm born in an Asian family okay (omg using stereotypes on myself? lol). Now, I'm currently 14, turning 15 on January 7^th.

As you can probably tell by the title, I am currently using my 2^nd account, chenshi.

You may be wondering (or maybe not idk), “why didn’t you just return to SleepyBrainy instead of using chenshi?” Well, this is a lame excuse, but it’s true; I was scared that the people who I made commitments to would get mad at me for leaving without a word. I was afraid that they would never forgive me. I’m a big wimp as you can tell. Again, I am very sorry. If I could bake, I would bake 100 cupcakes for you guys with “I’m sorry” written on each and every one of them.

I just reactivated this account again a few weeks because I finally grown the courage to see if I have messages from angry graphic shop owners. Surprisingly, all the last messages I have were graphic requests. It still makes me very sad seeing them because I just left, leaving unfinished business. I feel how Sheldon from BBT feels whenever he leaves something unfinished when I saw them.

And just now, I found the time to actually this blog post. I was thinking about how to write this post after I reactivated it, but they all ended up being lame excuses that weren’t even true. I being scared of being faced with angry messages is 100% true.

2 other reasons why I wanted to reactivate this account is because I wanted to transfer my karma points from this account to chenshi, and I was kind of curious on how my old graphic shop and portfolio looked like. I just realized how annoying I was when I was 12 (michelle it's only been 2 years please shut up). In my portfolio, I swore like in every single sentence. Now, I bearly swear, even around my friends whom I'm comfortable with.

I hope I made sense because I didn’t really plan how this post would turn out and the whole thing is pretty much unedited. However, I hope you guys will forgive me, even though I came back with a lame excuse on why I left. Since I would like to end this on a somewhat cheery note, here's a cute .gif on chen!

- Michelle, aka chenshi ♥