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Yesterday,the most tragic thing just happened to me...I feel alone now and I just wanna break down. I wanna cry hard til I can't cry anymore. 

I wanna punch someone, get hysterical..... 

 

.....but I can't..I need to be strong.. I'm a Man...I meed to be strong for me and my cousin..

I know even she don't cry,I know she's hurting too.. just like me...

Yesterday the person we loved passed away... my grandmother left us.

I feel like I killed her cause I'm the one who pulled out her life support. But I have to do it, so she can rest...

 

 

Rest in peace obasan...

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Death_Silence #1
I lost both my grandparents and I'm not by their side when it happens.. I was hundred kilometres far from home, and can't see their face for the last time, especially my grandfathers.. Anyways, its not about me.. Its you.. From now on, take care of your cousin, she only have you.. Never leave her alone, stay strong...
Sandara_Kwon #2
You don't have to blame yourself. Given that your grandmother is struggling hard, saving her from more pain is considered a right thing to do. I also lost my grandmother and I was there on her last breath. It hurts so much and I couldn't recover for a whole month without talking to her, facing the wall, and then praying.
It's okay to break down, we all can relate to your suffering right now. Good luck and be strong, alright? :)
Condolence to you and your family.
-caas- #3
It's ok to cry even if you are a guy. I lost my grandfather a few years back and I was there when he passed away. I remember that I cried a lot and I'm a guy too. It hurt a lot. It's hard to lose someone you loved so much but in time that pain will fade and you will learn to cherish the moments you spent together. You did the right thing. She can have peace now. I don't think your grandmother would want you to feel this way. |praying for you and your cousin
dream_keeper88 #4
I lost mine years ago and the pain never really goes away. But the time will come that you'd remember their life, your memories together and not just the pain. Right now, everything hurts. I didn't have to pull any life support, so I can't imagine how much you are hurting right now. But it has to be done. Think of it as you're way of freeing her from the suffering. I pray for peace and comfort for you and your family.
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