Hello. Not many of you know me, but the ones who does knows me as author of -V- (the story that I just began writing). I'm also known for always having troubles and mental breakdowns.
So... today my muse, named 'My love for Kim Taehyung' ran away... I was having a conversation with my friend. I guess she sacred my little muse away.
I quote: ''Your trip with your bias is only temporary, he will find a nice wife and have kids like every other man does and you, as a fan, will have to let go of him. As for now, while you can don't waste your time, show yourself and remind him how much you love him, because one day there will be a woman who will do it instead of all fans.'' 
I was crying by then but she didn't stop just there.
I quote again "You are just a temporary part of his life, you're not the person he will love, not the person he will kiss before going to bed, not the person he will have family with, not the person he will share all his troubles with. He will share his happiness, his tears and most importantly- his life with her and not with you any more. So please, wake up from your fantasy, because he's not yours and will never be."
It hurts so much, because it's true. Every word he said still rings in my head, even if it was a couple of days ago.
Now I think I need some time to put my thoughts in places, because they're all over the place right now. After what she said, I started to think that it's a sin to think about man, who doesn't even know of my existence. I feel as if it is a sin to love him, to feel something more than just respect... I'm sorry about my stupidity...