Hello everyone! It's been a long time, I hope everyone is doing fine. So actually on this blog post I want to tell you guys the reasons why I'm taking such a long hiatus ( which originally shouldn't be THAT long ). It will maybe be a little bit long so if you don't want to read it that's ok.

So like everyone other here we have a life outside AFF like school and such things. I think I once told that I want to go to college ( I think I posted that on my stories. ) But unluckily I didn't pass to college because I had some problems with my school, let's say I had a problem with my homeroom teacher. I had her in german language and of course wrote my final exam in it since german language was one of my main subjects. The other main subjects were english, math, and social affairs(?) ( I don't know the name in english, sorry ). I actually was afraid of math since I really in math but suprisingly I passed ( I think I had the best math teacher in my whole life the two years, he was a really nice person and wanted me to pass to college ). I also passed in english and social affairs, so I thought that I would pass in german language too since I wasn't really bad in that subject. But my ing homeroom teacher gave me on purpose a bad grade since she didn't wanted that I should go to college. On top of that she told me not to misunderstand her but she thought I wouldn't made it as soon as I would enter college. I'm sorry but are you my mom to know if I will do good or not? I also think it's really rude as an homeroom teacher to tell something like that, I mean doesn't she want the best for her students? Truthfully I don't know if she hated me, we didn't had really problem. But why on earth did she do that?? As an homeroom teacher!? And as I asked her what I did wrong on the final exam, she told me that I picked the wrong theme ( In german language it gives more than one theme ). But the funny thing is all over the year she told me to pick this theme since I wasn't really good in the other themes. I cried as soon as I went home, I really wanted to go to college and because of her my whole life changed. The next day my dad went to the school to talk with her but she instead told my dad to not make a drama because of that and told him why on earth I wanted to go to college. In the end I searched for an education for weeks but no one accepted me because I was too late. Because of her my life completely got ruined. I cried for days at home and also my parents got angry at me without any reasons. I got into quarrel with my parents often. I lost the enjoyment of writing fics and like that I had writer's block for weeks. Also I have holidays right now but instead being on holiday with my family, I'm still here in germany because my parents told me to search for a job. I really don't know what to do...  I also don't know when I will continue to write my fics along. I just wanted to tell you guys that instead of staying silent. I hope you will understand my situation now and I sincerely apologize for not updating. It's just that my whole life got upside down..