I've been .

I do , escaty, molly, weed, and I drink every night.

My mother tried to kill herself 3 times and blamed it on me.

My dad beat me.

I got engaged...and we left each other in the same year.

I cried for months, alone.

...

I'm not looking for sympathy. 

I know I'm ed up.

I just...miss the simpler days.

And this site used to be my happiness, my escape from it all.

I don't know if people realized, no matter how crappy my replies where, how much all of this meant to me.

I'm sorry I let it go. I lost myself, and I lost all of you.

I'll love you all, forever and always, no matter what I did in the past, in my confusion.

Sunny, Yoona, Heechul, Jinyoung, Tao, Fei, Jia, Boa, Luna,  Kevin, Miru, Taecyeon,  Leeteuk, Soo-hyun....to name a few...

-Suzy