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I thought I won't cry. But evening just brings out the worst in people and...I can't. I cried in front of my cousin when 'Always Be My Baby' by Mariah Carey played in the background. I don't what to do. How...how do I love 2 years without hyukjae. Yes. I've lived 11 years of my life without him, but all those 7 years I poured my heart out for him is so much different. Call me obsessed or freak or over acting, but I really feel heartbroken and miserable and I feel like . I can't cope up with 2 years without Hyukjae. I thought I prepared myself enough, but it still made me cry. I just can't.

I'll wait for you Hyukjae!

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Asumi123 #1 Jul 23, 2015 13:24:47

Hes going to enlist?

Imynadth #2 Jul 23, 2015 11:42:29

I feel u, dear sister!!! I have been loving hyukkie for like almost 10 years now and it's just so weird thinking how am I going to live my day without him, without him updating his sns, twitter and insta for 2 years.. It's weird to imagine Suju without him.. I have been always thinking the same thing for every member that have gone for the army but I guess seeing my own bias seems even more weirder.. I wish to see him face to face once again..before he gone *cries* I have been crying too much for past few months and I guess I'll keep on pouring up my tears until he come back~~~ Just palli for that 2 years to pass quickly!!!!! TT____________________TT *hugs*

eunhae_gf #3 Jul 23, 2015 11:13:51

i understand u like totally!! hyuk is always my ultimate bias in suju so him going to army going to affect me. i cried when other suju members went before so i dunno how to cope when its my own bias now. 2 years wo him sobsss but then if we think positive we will still have other members to take care so its going to be alright. 2 years without hyuk, and even without hyuk i will still support suju >< dun worry 2 years going to pass quickly! everything going to be alright! <3

kimminhara #4 Jul 23, 2015 10:23:32

I feel sorry for you. I can feel you cuz I feel the same thing when yesung go to the army. Now, it's almost 2 years. You can do this. 2 years is not a long time. Fighting!!

MieyFishy #5 Jul 23, 2015 10:16:32

I can feel you. It hurts so much, right? I dunno how im going to cope with donghae's enlistment soon