Hola! My term break ended last week and I'm sorry I didn't get to post up anything (not that anyone reads this haha laughs), but I'm back now and I've had an interesting week so far.

So alright, this is Miki's last term until he graduates, and is gone forever (scREAMING) and how do I feel about it exactly? Teribble. Absolutely terrible. I know I should do something but realistically speaking, I don't think I'd get any closer to him than I am now. It just seems impossible now, knowing that nothing will happen. Like always, I can just admire him from afar. I'm not giving up on him though (my crushes on people tend to be the same for a long time).

Aside from that, I've got a story to tell you today! It's been happening a lot more often ever since I came back to school. Okay, so on the first week back to school I didn't see Miki a lot in the mornings or afternoons. It was a busy week for me. But this week, it's been different...Miki has been going on the same train carriage I usually get on. And it's weird, since he hardly came over to the carriage I'm in.

It was crowded today, too. I almost didn't fit inside, but I managed. When I entered, Miki was behind me and entered. We were near the carriage door and I had nothing to hold onto so I could've easily fallen over on him and all (but I didn't lol I think I can maintain my balance in a moving train). So during the train ride to the next station I had to just control my feelings about being terribly close to him. I was literally just looking at his back. But he had his backpack on so I was actually staring at this bag haha. This was the closest I've ever gotten to him throughout the whole year and I kinda feel accomplished? lol.

There were a few times where I was adjusting my bag to put in between my legs, but I accidentally kept touching the side of Miki's leg omg crying.

When the next station came we all had to get out to let others get off too. When I went back inside I was near a pole to hold onto, and what surprised me was that Miki was right beside me, like our shoulders were aligned and almost touching (he was taller though so our shoulders cannot meet). I was actually hoping that'd he appear right beside me when I entered the carriage though, guess I got lucky with that. Throughout the ride, I tried to NOT look in his direction but his slim and sharp frame, his height and arms and everything were just too tempting to look at. Sorry if that sounds weird haha oh man. I cannot just NOT appreciate him.

That's it for today, I had too much feels to feel today. In my next blog post I'll be talking about a really crazy dream I had today too! So look out for my next blog and I'll see you all later. Annyeong!