missing it

THE FOLLOWING IS A RANT yeah

So hi... It's been almost a year since I started being inactive from aff, and kpop in general... all because its been a year since I started college AND got a boyfriend. Being in love is awesome, and it's actually the first time i've felt something real since kpop just makes me feel like i'll never get these guys yeah? Before, I thought being in a relationship wouldn't hinder me at all from kpop, when in fact it was the exact opposite.

To get things straight, I stopped fangirling, reading fics, and following kpop because my boyfriend feels insecure about me liking them.

I don't know what I should do. It's been a year and I miss this place and i miss kpop and i miss watching variety shows and concerts and waisting all my money on i'll never use and posting pictures on twitter that express my utter frustration on how perfect they are.

It's hard and i dont know if thats going to happen to any guy I date or its just this one guy. There was one time I actually considered dumping him because I really love kpop but idk ididnt have the heart since I really did love him.

Idk just felt like letting it out since this is the only social media he doesn't know about. He doesn't know I write fics. Like, at all.

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frozenfrk #1 Jul 3, 2015 05:41:52

Hi! I'm just a stranger passing by, who happened to discover your fic today and accidentally clicked on the blog instead of stories.

Congratulations on getting a boyfriend : ) I think it's awesome that you found someone and fell in love! It's gonna be quite an experience! Being in a relationship requires many things, including honesty and (lots of) compromises, which you will learn along the way.
Anyway, since you really like this guy and I hope he really cherish you as well, why not be open with each other?
You mentioned that he felt insecure about you liking KPop, we tend to be scared or wary of the things we're not familiar with, or maybe he's afraid that you will pay attention to your interest more than him.

This can go in two different ways, either you slowly introduce him to your hobbies (limit the exposure for a start) or you come back and continuing your fangirl activities without him knowing. With the optimistic thought that you have a fruitful, long term relationship with him, one day he will eventually know all of your interests.