honestly speaking, i have been avoiding Twitter and even Facebook and Instagram. I couldn't even read any Soshi fanfics and let alone updating my own stories. I've been focusing my attention on Lee Yoo Ri from Jang Bori is Here! The evil character Yeon Min Jeong and she has appeared on Running Man episode 213 as well. And I found out that she's two years older than me so she's a Unnie to me! 

it's not that I have forgotten about Soshi or Jessica but I've had enough of OT8 Camp VS Jessica Camp. I mean, it's pretty annoying and now with the departure of Sulli from f(x), the open wounds are torn apart all over again. there are some idiots who claimed that f(x) members tried to keep Sulli in while Soshi just dropped Jessica like that. 

it's frustrating to know that there are some monkeys who think Soshi dropped Jessica so easily. well, it's a known fact that Jessica has been waiting to leave SNSD even in the interviews, she has said that. let's try not to hide the fact that Jessica has the intention to leave. but perhaps, she was thrown out of the group because of her company may be unfair but how did you know that she was thrown out? 

she blew it up on her weibo. she said the girls turned their backs on her. but you're just listening to one side of the story. what about the other side of the story? the coin has two sides and there's heaven and earth. there's always two sides to everything - whether it's just a pack of lies or the truth. i'm going to stand in the middle - in between the both of them. i'm still standing on the OT9 side. as long as the other side of the story is not being revealed, i'm not going to take sides.

i don't care about RV or the other new groups emerging. honestly speaking, the hallyu wave is diminishing. it's not only Soshi, but Big Bang, Super Junior, 2NE1 etc. they all are acknowledging the fact that the Korea Hallyu Wave is gone. Yes, EXO, BTS are getting more popular but they are not going to ride on the wave that long. it's the same like Jpop. Jpop was really popular back in 1990s. I remember vividly because I listened to them. 

Ayumi Hamasaki, Utada Hikaru, SMAP, Kinki Kids, SPEED, DA PUMP, Tackey & Tsubasa and even BOA. I even listened to the rock bands - Luna Sea & Larcienciel. I listened to them when I was just a teenager. They were doing so well intenationally and even bought DA PUMP Concert DVDs because the boys were awesome. but their popularity faded out in the early millenium years. Bollywood was then popular. 

So, Korean Hallyu Wave is going through the same routine. Music trends will die out after some time and I'm just glad SOSHI is part of the Hallyu Wave. i'm just glad that the girls had the time of their lives. they rode the wave and reached to the top. 

unfortunately, the journey downwards isn't really beautiful as we expected. sometimes things just dont go your way and i'm really upset that it's happening. perhaps we will know the truth after 10 years but it doesn't really matter anymore. 

the wound is open; the scar is vivid and the pain is lingering. and then we have stupid Sones who decide to take sides. i mean, it's fine with me. but you don't have to shoot each other down. if you are on OT8 camp, then support the 8 ladies. if you're on Jessica's camp, then love her well. 

just don't put each other down. the girls have enough wounds to bear. the fans don't need to add on. if you need to comment, let it be an encouraging comment. 

i'm totally done with this. 

i'm moving on, painfully.

it's like having a broken heart; a broken relationship - it will take time for me to move on. but i'll move on anyway.

until then, i'll update my stories when my heart feels a lot better.

until then, i'm always SNSD (OT9) fan. in my heart, it's always 9 - not only 8; not only Jessica Jung.