May 19, 2015 the end of something beautiful. Time passed by so fast I didn't even realize it, yes I'm talking about one of the most memorable and probably most unforgettable milestone in my life. I remember the 1st day I stepped into high school as if it was just yesterday. Back then I was this child who's full of insecurity and the kid who tries her best to fit in with the crowd. Of course I made terrible decisions in the past but that's okay, it was part of growing up I guess. I never really had a reason why I was alive, why I am still breathing in this cruel world we live in. I used to hang out with people who are just as lost as I am. Unfortunately for us, we didn't know we were making bad choices we used to drink and smoke a lot. Back then we didn't care, we used alcohol and smoke to fill the empty spaces in our hearts. We don't care if we're going to die because deep inside we already are.

For 3 years I looked for someone who could just accept the real me and never judge the decisions I've made in the past. I tried committing suicide so many times yet I never really had the courage to do it, because deep inside I know that I don't want to stop hoping. I want to see the reason why I was still breathing. I didn't want to end it there, I wanted someone to prove me that I can be in some way significant and useful to someone. I wanted to be overwhelmed with feelings. One day I've decided to stop smoking and drinking for some reason. But that's when I started to hurt myself more and more. I wanted to ease the pain that I was feeling. I asked God so may times "God why?! Why do I have to go through all of these?! Why can't I just be happy like the others" I cried almost every night untill I fall asleep asking why. Of course I have friends here and there but I was never really open to them. I was scared of trusting people because the more I trust the more vulnerable I become. I've trusted a few people before and the end is always the same, it was very different from the fairytales and stories my mom told me when I was a kid before I go to bed. I was literally slapped in the face by reality so many ing times. But just like any teenager, I never really learn. I kept on trusting and forgiving people and I was alright with it. My heart was broken so many times that I don't even give a anymore. I've learned not to trust people anymore no matter how lonely I was deep inside and no matter how much I wanted to be with someone.

Then Senior year happened. I was expectjng it to be the same just like every year. One of my classmates Posted on our group during summer, to add these 3 transferees from her old school. I checked their accounts out of curiosity, one of them was so pretty I'm like "Please no, not another headache." I was expecting those three to be with the "famous" es, oops I mean, people. You know that group that are so girly and they feel like they run the whole ing school and disrespects teachers. Ughh so ing annoying! Anyways the 1st day of school came and the whole class was playing this concentration game where you have to say your name and one of the new students' name. I always say the name of this particular girl, let's call her Liz, because her name was easy to pronounce and remember and I wouldn't have to deal with the consequence which is a truth or dare. She lost once and they dared her to hug our top 1 who doesnt like skinship. We were laughing our off, they were so awkward liz didnt even fully hugged her. A week passed by and I was playing with my rubiks cube and ine of my classmates was like "hey can you teach me how to do it?". I couldn't really say no so I sat on the back seat with her because others were doing  things infront and I started teaching her she then gave up. So I started playing by myself again, I didn't even bother going back to my seat. The new girl beside me, the pretty one who i thought I would hate, said hi and we started talking she asked me if I could solve it and what was my record I said "sure why not and 1 min.(now 40 not that it matters XD) is my record". We started being friends and stuffs I found out that she was living with Liz and the other girl. So I ended up talking with the three of them. At first I was closest with the pretty gurl until it got awkward between but not anymore hahaha we're cool now. So I became close with Liz through chat. She was this very optimistic girl and innocent hahaha. Though in person, she was very quiet at first, until she became comfortable with our class and we pretty much made a monster. We became very close and they were also my busmates. She was a cry baby and clingy like me. So we became close real fast, I started opening up to her and I gave my heart another chance to feel somehow hopeful again. It was worth it and it's the best decision I've ever made in my HS life.

Then one day I saw a post from this guy who's also in the same grade and school as we are but he's on the boys block. He posted a picture of this anime that I like so I messaged him where did he get that and yeah we startd talking. He is now my brother ^.^ since I'm an only child and he acts like it. He always tease me but never fails to ask how my day was. He's also protective and he's just the sweetest thing in the world. I love his hair it's so fluffy and he gets mad at me for ruining it but it's so worth it. Liz and brother became my family. They mean the world to me now and Thank God I didn't gave up because they are so worth it. I wouldn't want to see a world without these two dorks. Their comforting hugs and advices are the best thing in this world. I never felt so at home when I'm with them. My birthday came and they, along with some of our friends, surprised me. They made me go through a freakin treasure hunt and at the end of the hunt I found them waiting for me with gifts, flowers, and a cake. I nearly cried except there was a guard who's like "no you can't do this here" so I didnt get to cry. They were so sad about it since they wanted to make me cry. We just ate dinner and played in the arcades it was fun, then we went to the haunted house and I was so scared T.T good thing brother was there and he held my hand when he knew I couldn't go any further and he didn't let go until we were finally out. Then he teased me for being scared afterwards T.T It's probably the best birthday ever, it's going to be hard to top that one. Before graduation liz, brother, and I planned to see a movie (AVENGERS :D CAPTAIN BÆMERICA IS LOVE). Tbvh its the most memorable day ever with those two since we were all comfortable with eachother unlike my bday. The trailers before the movie started playing and it stopped for a few seconds and me and liz wer confused we were like "uhhh..." Then the trailer for starwars started playing and we got scared >.< My brother to the rescue again since he was beside me he hugged and comforted me. Me and Liz were fangirling cause of captain america and inside jokes.

But sadly our senior year was running fast and we had to part our ways to move on to the next chapter of our lives. All that I know is that I am thankful for everything they've done for me in a short period of time and that I could never ask for more. I thank them for being part of my life and I hope they will stay for a long time.