Hey guys, it has been a long time. A really long time. 

I want to apologize for not writing or updating anything for the last two years, I feel like absolute for leaving everyone hanging. So, I'm going to be honest. Completely. 

So, in May of 2013 my mom left my dad and took me to another state against my will. It didn't help that she had moved us in with her boyfriend. I was 15 at the time and it was terrifying, I knew absolutely no one around us and my family was in Michigan while I was forced to stay in Texas. Without telling me, my mom married her boyfriend and I didn't even know for two whole weeks. 

I started to get depressed, and it also did not help that at school the friends I had made started to leave, and I started to get made fun of because I actually gave a crap about my school work while the other students didn't. I'm not being racist in anyway, but I was one of the five non-Mexican kids at the school, and I honestly feel like I was being judged on the fact that my skin is white. 

Everyone spoke in Spanish, and while I was fine with that because hey, that's their business honestly, but when some of the girls started to point at me and start laughing at me, I knew something was up. One day I heard them speaking in English to a new friend of theirs and they were whispering about how i was a dyke and to stay clear from me. 

Those girls didn't know me, they judged me because I had short hair. I had brought it up to a teacher, and she did absolutely nothing about it. She didn't even care, just told me to basically deal with it on my own. 

The reason I felt like some of the kids and teachers were racist against people who weren't Mexican is because a lot of the students did not do their school work, they slept during class and such, and the teachers would let them, but one guy who had white skin fell asleep once and they smacked him with a book on his head to wake him up. 

Does that seem fair or right? Let's even say that we were all the same race, is that still okay? No, it wasn't, but no one cared. 

Anyways, so the whole school thing had me really upset, and even though i passed my tests with A's, I would still get lectured by the teachers and cussed at on a daily basis like the other students for no reason. 

Well, anyways, apart from school the house i was living in didn't have a welcoming vibe. 

My step-dad drank every night from the time he got off work until he went to bed, and if he got alcohol that wasn't beer, things would get bad fast. 

One night, he had had tequila shots with a coworker and my mom picked him up and drove to our house and all night he continued to drink and he broke the trashcan by throwing it across the kitchen, then he got mad at the fridge and broke two of the drawers at the bottom. Now, at the time this happened I was sleeping in the living room because the other room wasn't ready for me to live in. 

Anyways, back to that night, in the end he threatened and screamed at my mom, and i had had enough and got up and started screaming at him to go to bed, and he screamed at me back in return and held his fist up and told me if I ever got in his face again, he would knock my teeth out and i'd regret doing it again. 

my mom being my mom, forced me to apologize to him afterwards for yelling at him. 

I honestly figured att his point my mom truly didn't care if I was in a safe environment at all because she continued to choose her husband over her own kid. 

So, anyways I had to deal with this from May of 2013 to March of 2014, and then I had to live with my sister, who i don't get along with at all, and finally later on I was able to get back to the pepole I really consider as my family. surprisingly, my mom and dad got back together, so i guess maybe yay for that? 

Well, anyways in September of 2014 i started school again, and because i was homeschooled almost my entire life, and my mom didn't have proof of any credits before Texas, so I have a ton of credits I need to do to graduate. 

I'll be turning 18 this year in August, and I still have a year of school left. I'm working this summer on extra credits, and I can only get four done by the 29th of July, so I have a ton of work to do. Then, I can get twelve more credits max in the Fall and Spring classes, and if I work again next summer and do another four credits, I will finally be able to graduate. This means I have to pass every class. 

Since I'm being honest, I'll also state that since December my life has been a wreck once again, my niece has been abused and molested by her biological father and the state of Michigan, the grandparents have no rights. So, i've been in thirteen states traveling since January 2015 and it's been hell with my school work and just social live in general. 

another thing is that my laptop is broken, something about the video card being broken, so all of my saved files of my stories are lost currently until I get another computer that I can use that isn't a google chrome. 

Guys, this is why i haven't been updating, and I am so so sorry. I promise, once I get a new laptop, I will update more and hopefully finish up some stories.