Happy, not.

I got my laptop yesterday, something which I've always wanted. I should feel happy, but I'm not. I don't know. I realised, nothing makes me happy. I feel like I lost everything in life. I feel like I lost to the whole world. I don't know what to do. I just want someone to keep talking to me, keep trying to make me happy. I wanted to go out and take a breather, but the moment I thought of how I have to fake smiles, fake laughter, fake happiness to everyone outside, I shrugged off that thought. I told myself staying at home might be better for me. Maybe shutting myself out from the world will be better for me. I don't know how long I'm gonna feel like this. One minute, one day, one month, one year or maybe forever. It's been too long since I felt genuinely happy, I forgot how it feels to be happy.

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ValenskyK #1
Look, you've many friends here. You don't have to worry. Actually we are just same. But what make us different is, I'm rather an anti-social person. Since i was little, i don't like to have many people around me. I don't know why. I also barely talking with other people. My classmate even call me the quietest person. This whole 15 years i live, i only have a bestfriend. I don't know i think I'm just being traumatic with this social life.
eightaenine #2
jagii you break our promise :( I told you to come to me so you won't feel sad!
LTMSYF #3
you definitely need someone to chat with, to spend time with. I've been through that....maybe I'm still undergoing this phase, but it will pass eventually as long as you talk to someone and try to go out a lot. it does work on me, like going out with your friends, meeting new friends...it always makes you feel better
kenshin #4
I`m here there are here aff is also here so don't feel that you're alone. You just have to find the right person to talk to, or maybe right thing to enjoy life. Just smile and you'll be safe and sound. :)
hyonuna #5
You're not alone
skatergirl97 #6
You can talk to me
rainbowfluff #7
oh my god i feel like that every single day if not every sec...but do u need someone to talk to? how about your friends?
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