do guys feel this what i am feeling right now?

i mean all i did was to be a perfect daughter for them 

but i dont know its just that they cant see it that way

i tried hard for them to notice me but they cant

a simple very simple mistake that i do 

all they think is that i am worthless....

they always tell me "why dont you tell us what you want"

but when i want to them they just ignored me

i dont know what to do...

i feel so worthless and i feel like i am crampled paper that 

anymoment someone will throw me in the bin......

i want to cry so badly but i know when i woke up the pain will still be there.....

no one pays attention to me....

no one....

.....

the hurt that i feel right now is worst than 

i feel when someone turn me down....

i really dont know why am i saying to you guys its just that

i dont know who will i talk to when everyone in this damn house wouldnt even 

ask me if i am alright or even how am i doing 

for me...

its better to live in the world of my stories that made it maybe hurt seeing your love one hurt in the story but atlease in the end 

they still be happy....

i wish i could disappear in just a snap of a finger 

but i know it will never happen 

i really feel so useless and i really feel so damn nothing...

im sorry for some of my foul words but this f*king life of mine is F*KING me right now!