Confession

so, yesterday my kitten named Creamy died. she died because my sister (an OKU) throwed her through the window while i was at school. today i lose all my confidence about having a kitten/cat. i told the first owner about what happened and all i get is all the blame he gave me. he even told me to dont adopt a kitten next time and i can only adopt a kitten when i think i can. if this is what i get, i dont think in future i will ever adopt a kitten.

it really breaks my confidence like that. i feel miserable. life and death is not in my hand. God the is the one who decides it but why would you blame me. you make a thousands of guilty got built in my heart. why wouldnt you come to my house and kill me if im that bad on taking care of a kitten. i dont care if you kills me. its my fault anyway.

i dont know what to do in my life anymore. you make me feel like im a quiet murderer. i murdered it without even touch it. i dont know if i really should adopt my friend's cat. how to even gain my confidence again? i killed a kitten.

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nana00 #1 May 24, 2015 03:00:00

Hey,this remind of back in the past...i used to have two kittens....but both of them died because my driver hit the kitten..I cried hardly and blame that this is my fault for not protecting them however one day I realize that it wasn't my fault and it was his fault. He's a cold-hearted man! So, what I'm going to say this is KEEP MOVING FORWARD. what happen in the past, is the past. DON'T LOOK BACK AND DON'T BLAME YOURSELF FOR WHAT HAPPEN. All of this happen, there must be a reason. Trust me, everything happens for a reason.

Cherryblossom001 #2 May 23, 2015 08:08:00

Don't lost your confidence, take it as your challenge to prove that you are not wrong.. You are not a murder ^^.. Sometimes people didn't see the truth, they only see it with their eyes not with their heart.. Don't sad okay..