Hello everyone,

it seems kind of sad that my first blog post could very well be my last.

probably many don't know this yet, or maybe lots of you are as heartbroken as me in this moment. Tao just posted on weibo, "sorry. Thankful". It hurts me so much. Tao is my bias and I don't know how to react. Everything is a turmoil right now. When kris and Luhan left, I was obviously heartbroken, but having to go through that for a third time I feel it might be too much for me. I just want to be happy. I want to go back when everything was all lovely and dandy. I know there's still no official statement, but it's pointless to hope in something that you very well know it's over. My hope ran out, and I hate myself for allowing that to happen. I love all EXO members and that's the reason why I can't bare to see them like this. This fandom is so broken.

i wanted to post this in regard to my stories. I have no idea if I'll continue them. I don't know if I can handle going into mourning for a third time, it takes so much on my soul and I don't know if I'm strong enough for this. Only time will tell. I might try to finish my stories, but I can't promise anything. 

Im sorry for everything.