it's happening  again  and idk if i can take all this anymore...i want him to stay but at the same time i want him to be healthy and happy again...he has expressed that he'd never leave so many times so i wish to believe he really doesn't wanna leave but it's so obvious that if he stays he'll get hurt even more and i do not wish that upon him...he's my baby angel and i will love him no matter what

i want him to know that i'll always support him no matter which decision he makes...just how i still support yifan and luhan even though they left...i love all of them equally and i will never forget about them

for now i just want him to rest and recover.

i love you tao so so so much.