Okay. So uh, how do I say this. Uhm..

Hello? Anyone there?

May I just say something crazy? Okay this is not really crazy, but, this is something sad.

So.. remember when I posted my first story? The day I posted it? Tbh, I was really happy back then. Happy and excited. I, myself, were anticipating for my story and I just couldn't control myself to be excited.

As day passes and as I continue to update every chapter, I'm kind of getting weary. Sad. Lonely.

Yes, I have to be thankful to those people who subscribed. Thank you very much, I appreciate your effort. But I just couldn't help myself to feel sad.

Do you know that feeling where you're on this high peak of your writing, and when you read someone's story, you're just like boogsh. That's what I've been feeling, every single time.

Everytime I read other authors' stories, I can't help but to get jealous, and feel sorry to myself.

To make this long post short..

I feel useless.

Unwanted.

Not good.

Failure.

It feels like.. no one wants my story. No one wants to read it. No one is interested. No matter how many times I promote it to my friends, in my sns.. No one.

I feel so sorry to myself.

I just wanted to cry. Everytime.

I'm sorry if I failed.

I'm sorry if I am a failure.

I'm sorry.