How can I believe in love again when...

the girl who told me she loved me

the girl who had kissed my scars, looked me in the eye, and told me she never wanted to see me hurt myself again (I used to self hurt)

the girl who would bandaid me up when I did

the girl who got me to see a counsellor, and listened to the recorded sessions because she cared that much

the girl who would smile -- half shy, half proud -- when I'd mention to the counsellor how loving and supportive my girlfriend was

the girl who had met my parents, and awkwardly answered all the questions that my overly protective dad threw at her

the girl who was giddy whenever I said that my parents mentioned or asked about her

the girl who watched the sun rise with me

the girl who sang me love songs

That same girl looked me in the eye and told me she didn't feel the same way anymore. That she no longer loved me.

How will I ever trust someone with my heart again?

- melly