Ok so I guess this will be like a public diary post because for some reason I wanna share my feelings. {watch no one read this (T ^ T)} Ok so Ive been feeling like lately all I think about is a) how useless I am or b) how I should just die. Tbh I want to tell my friends to get understanding and help but I'm just not important enough. It's Junior year grades college family and I don't wanna add to the pressure. My parents are paying for everything I can not worry them and my siblings are a) too young or b) too old to understand I'm so fed up with life that i might actually. ugh everything I eat I throw up and that's horrible I know but if I keep it in I feel disgusting and sadly its the only thing that makes me calm. I don't understand as well