Hey guys!

 

So I just wanna share a little something with you all~

 

Truthfully, I have been bullied since 5th grade and those bullying got worse as I step on 6th grade because then I started liking kpop.

 

Do you know how hard it is to like kpop in the age of 10 during 2009? It was very very VERY hard...

 

Kpop wasn't all that during that period, everyone was all over Jay Chou or Justin Bieber (ewh justin bieber... ugh... #sorrynotsorry) which concludes that I barely have friends in elementary.

 

Moving to the 7th grade was no better cause then I started being famous due to the excessive amount of fangirling I gave to the kpop world. Everyone knows me by the name of 'Jung'.

 

I was named Jung because back then, blackberry messenger was so popular and someone has decided to make the 'make your own korean name game!' Kind of thing so I made myself a name according to my birthday (*cough*1st September 1999 *cough*) and I got the name of 'Jung Soohwa' and I proudly put it on my profile name hence why I was called 'Jung'!

 

CONTINUE!!

 

So!

 

8th grade was probably the worse because then, I started to grow to the newly debuted groups... back then there was B.A.P, EXO and VIXX... those 3 bands were the ones that I like the most! Especially B.A.P (hence, the name 'baby_natasha' is made)

 

I started drawing kpop boys and girls up until my teacher discovered my drawing and decided to spill it to the whole class... and the image of a 'kpop freak' has been bistoed to me.

 

During those period (2012-2013) I have probably attempt 4 suicide excluding the ones I attempted because of my parents but no, I didn't cut my wrists because I only tried jumping from the balcony of my apartment.

 

Back then I had no friends at all, bullying has been my only true friend as it haunts me everywhere I go (except in church, but sadly my church friends doesn't like kpop ; ^ ;).

 

THANKFULLY!! I met a few new friend in high school who appareantly like kpop and they also like VIXX! I was so happy and these days I grew closer to them.

 

The reason I'm blogging this is because I wanna help those who are in the same position as I was or perhaps bullied or teased for other reasons.

 

I wanna be friends with those who thinks that I am and I wanna try to be a shelter to those who are looking for one during the storms of their lives.

 

Know that I'm here... everyday I opened my aff acc only to see if anyone had comment on my stories or not because what I loved most about making and sharing my stories are the feedbacks that I've got, saying I'm a good writer and that I should continue my stories...

 

Ttar is the reason on why I'm still writting on aff.

 

 So if you have a problem and don't know where to turn to, I'm all ears and I'll be here for those who want a company ♡