I haven't been posting a lot again. That's because nothing much has really happened with me and Miki. It's just this unrequited love honestly haha. I'm just gonna fangirl here about how he looks angelic and stuff 'cause looking at him from afar is all that I can really do.

So let me start off on a day where I saw Miki with his friends walking up the stairs, while I took the ramp, to the train station. I 'bumped' into him near the ticket machines and I was so sO SO SO CLOSE TO MIKI. HE'S SO TALL AND LOVELY AND I JUST LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM (there's no strong scent from him that I smelt when I passed by so no not yet lmao). On that day, from what I recall I got really upset because this girl dragged me into the train she catches, so I was really upset that I couldn't stay behind and watch and fEEL MIKI'S PRESENCE.

On Sunday, which was yesterday I went to the library with my sibling and I saw Miki sITTING DOWN WITH MY SIBLING AND I JUST WANTED TO JOIN IN BUT that would've been awkward. It might've went something like:

Me: Hey, I'm just gonna sit down here and do my work but not really I came purely for admiring Miki but I think I'll try to do some of my assessments and homework so don't mind me I'm just here.

So yeah! In the end I chose to sit somewhere alone...by myself...and quietly studied. I was actually surprised that I got a lot of stuff done in just 3 hours. I was expecting myself to hide behind the bookshelves and pretend that I'm not looking at Miki or something.

No wait, actually I did do something like that when it was 15 minutes before the library was closing. I was "looking" for books and walked past by Miki several times without him seeing me. He was smiling and laughing so much it just looked so precious. I love his smile, his laugh and his voice. It's really cute! He was wearing white on that day and I think he looks really good in anything that he wears. I'm not sure if he even tries to put any effort, but he looks comfortable.

Now, on this day I took the early train to school so i didn't get to see Miki in the morning but! In the afternoon something funny just happened. The train was packed and Miki and his friends were trying to come into the carriage. He was getting squashed in the corner near the stairs and the door (if you know what Australian trains look like, those not-really-new ones) and he was smiling and laughing and just looking at his friends like "HELP" and iT WAS ADORABLE I COULDN'T HELP BUT SMILE. It was so precious ahhh!

That's all for now!

And can I just add my disappointment: I GAINED 1KG FROM THE PAST 2 WEEKS. I'M SO UPSET WITH THAT. Lately I've been trying to lose a bit more weight because you know when you have a crush and you're motivated to just look good for them? Yeah...my mindset everytime.