I can't even remember when was my last update and which fanfics. It's really been a while since I visited AFF and I suddenly remember about my account couple days ago, and I ended up writing a story which plot I haven't finished writing yet, haha. I just felt like posting something. 

So the last couple years, I had spent my time working and roleplaying. I think I started writing here on AFF when I was still in college? And now I've been working for nearly two years! I was looking back at my writing and damn they all had lots of flaws. Between my stressing work, I managed to spend my free time on writing in korea roleplay. It was fun until I found no motivation to continue it as intense as before. I've met and lost lots of people in the process, and what has been progressively developing is only my writing. I'm not saying I regret the time I've spent there, but it was really hard to focus on writing. Sometimes I forgot what was my goal to be there. Although I got criticized once in a while, I voluntarily backed up and left my account to another. Maybe it was a wrong move, but It was not completely wrong because I was doing the best I could. 

I realized that being a writer means you need some consistency, lots of endurance and creativity. I'm still a writer who bases their writing in the mood. Sometimes when I feel like writing but I'm far from my laptop, I intend to remember the plot I have in my head instead of writing it down. And when I'm ready to write it down, I already lose my motivation to post it. Sometimes it becomes a hassle, I need to set a routine and write down my ideas beforehand. My head is really fluid sometimes I want lots of things at once. I think that could be the reason why people seem lose motivation to write with me. Nevertheless, roleplaying does help improve my English a lot. I'm not saying I'm perfect yet, but I'm slowly figuring out my own style in writing, and I hope it will get better as long as I don't stop writing.