Oh come on.

 

Not now. 

 

please.

 

O.M.G

 

WHY.

 

why do i have a menstruation while i have my beloved-sweet-fluffy-handsome-awesome boyband LIVE concert here. luckily i had handage in my bag and the concert hasnt been started yet.

 

Nah. i hope there was no blood stains in my WHITE skirt. hell no. i dont want to embarass myself in front of my future husband(s).i opened the VIP's closet room. i washed my palm and back hands. dont wanna leave the slightest stain. what if i become the lucky fan and my hands is not sterile. I CANNOT BRING THE HELL BACTERY ON MY BELOVED HUSBAND. ITS A BIG NO.

 

Suddenly the VIP's closet room opened. its a boy who wears a-- well boyfriend's costume in any concert before.

 

well...am i become hallucinating because i had my menstruation?

 

"Eh- ah sorry. its a... Girls room eh?" He asked while he rubbed his cheek.

 

 

DA HELL. HE IS REAL. WHUT WHY- 

IS HE REALLY JEONGMIN?

 

"...jeongmin?" I agape my mouth.

 

"ah. yes i am. are u vip's fan?uh?" 

 

Yes. and im ur future wife. 

Haish lily, u stupid. dont dare.

 

I nodded. i feel like i would like to fainted in this VIP's closet. 

 

"Oh... im sorry. see u later, bby!" he grinned. i smiled back and wave my two hands. he closed the door.

 

F.UCK. 

 

DID U HEAR U WERE CALLED WITH BBY THINGS?!

. IM GONNA DIE YOUNG.

 

 

"eh wait...whats ur name?" he came back with a sweet smile plastered in his lips while grabbed the knob.

 

"Lily. Shim Lily" I answered. the heck. why on the earth he was asking my name

 

"Okay. Lily. nice to see u. bye! see u later" he closed the door. again. 

 

WELL IS THAT THE SIGN HE WILL MARY ME SOMEDAY?

 

Ohgod.

 stfu lily. 

stop dreaming. 

 

I walk into my seat in the vip stand. for Vip ticket buyers, we can see the whole rehersal. i saw jeongmin was waving his hand towards me.

 

 

HECK.

 

AM I DAY DREAMING?

 

i rub my two eyes. but jeongmin still waving towards me.  whut? i turn my back. see who is behind me.

 

 

THERE IS NO ONE. SO..its between VIP's.

 

 

AM I?

 

nope nope. 

but eh... its normal right when my future husband waving towards me right? so why the hell i doubt that. I flip my hair.

 

....fck.

 

did Jeongmin see me myself flip my hair with proudly?!?!

 

...oh.SH.IT

omg. i think he sees me like ---who-deserves-die-on-his-awesome-hand now. oh my life.

 

its only 5 minutes left to fully concert begins. i wait with patiently. im such a good gurl right? am not going to protest. no. just not. its such a waste to see rehersal end like this. there is no robe scream who fill the whole place. and im honestly LIKE THIS CONDITION. THANKS TO MY BELOVED MOM. i owe u one mome. i love u. and also being VIP ticket buyers is the nearest road to be the lucky fan. AND IM WAITING FOR IT. but i kinda sure my jeongminie would choose me instead of the other gurls. Im his future wife right? well how lucky i am.

 

5 minutes passed, and the concert is starting with robe fan screaming until my e ears would like to leave me here. Oh for god's sake. dont make me deaf, will u. they start with melody of eyes, obssesion, bounce, my avatar, witch, janus.... and after janus.. its my turn to be lucky fan. well im not really sure though. but excuse u, im his future wife, arent i?

 

 some minutes passed and yeah..... they will choose one of their fans.

 

haish. fck urself dont u lily. 

stop self-proclaimed and pray for urself.

 

 

LOOK.

 

MY JEONGMINIE WAS WALKING TOWARDS ME. AH IM SO ECSTATIC AND NERVOUS NOW.  come to ur proud wife.. baby. 

 

 

WELL WHAT?!?! HE STOP BESIDES ME. HE IS NOT GOING TO PICK MEEEEEE UP WHUAAAAT HE IS GOING TO PICK ONE BESIDES ME. WELL JEONGMIN WHY WHY

 

 

but he gave me a paper out off suddenly, 

dear husband. 

i dont need a torn piece of blank paper. no need to...

 

but wait. I saw something behind this blank paper. i turn back the side and make me see a number- JEONGMIN'S NUMBER PHONE. I think.

 

SERIOUSLY? 

I catch my handphone that has been spend it time in my pocket. Well hello dear, I need u now. I type that jeongmin-- I type that number which i assumed it jeominie's. and send any unimportant message. 

 

'Ah hello. is that u jeomgmin-ssi? eh? or..i had a wrong number eh? sorry before' Im kind of smiled when i type that unimportant message u know. please answer me, jeongmin. 

 

Stupid me. he doesnt even get break yet, he wouldnt see my message. but if its really jeongmin's. 

 

i lifted my head, honestly i dont want to see a 'lucky-gurl-event' when im not the lucky gurl. its . but well i still have my respect to the whole fandom fellas. See? they were singing for her and then she can choose the one who will give her a fanservice oh . dont dare to choose my jeongminie. well.....even though i love all of Boyfriend's member. but im still a little bit willingly if she choose at least not my jeongmin. Wow luckily she doesnt choose my jeongmin. she choose the visual one, kwangmin. why did she choose kwangmin, when kwangmin had a twin, youngmin? Youngmin should really feel offended now, God bless you youngmin. love u.

 

 

3 hours has passed, the concert it has ended. Its Boyfriend turn to have fansign event for VIP's fans. well its okay im not that lucky girl, at least i have my VIP ways. out off suddenly, my phone had a message. its from....JEONGMIN'S NUMBER. Nope. i meant, from number which i assumed jeongmin's. I read and......lTS JEONGMIN NUMBER For REAL. well some time ago i saw jeongmin was playing with his handphone indeed. is it jeongmin's number for real? AM I DREAMING?

OH SH.IT. good bye world. too glad to even live. 

 

 

any minutes had passed and now fansign is begins. we- vip's ticket buyers were standing make a line. its pretty discipline. thanks god. 

 

and now, the one who was standing in front of me is JEONGMIN! ugh. im so nervous. he was writing on his album without asked me my name- is he really even remember my name? omg best day ever. 

 

"see u next time, Lily. I hope we can talk many things next time as a person of course" he uttered softly- not really. was more like a whisper. he grins, gives me that album, and i was just like smilling stiffly. I CANT BREATHE. does he get a cheesy script? well not really cheesy but i will get jealous if i know he did the same thing on the other girl. curse him.

 

oh lily. no cussing.

 

I moved to the other members and asked for their handsign one by one. and 30 minutes has passed. the concert was really ended this time. I was walking to the taxi. im quite happy today, so I wont wait boyfriend's car until they leave like i did it a years ago. I catch my handphone and i had 3 messages from jeongmin, 8 miscalls from my younger sister along with 8 messages as well, 18 messages from my dad, 5 messages from my mom. are they started to missing me? hell. Lets see some messages from beloved husband.

 

'Hello, Lily. i think... can we meet?

u can come to meet me in the starship company. can't u?

And please be carefull on papparazi. U-Know-why'

 

I sincerely answered with 'Okay. tomorrow:)'

 

WHY IS IT. UGH BABY JEONGMINIE. I scream harder in taxi. and now the driver was scolded me. i pay u, shut up already. i sighed. that old man was ruining my day. Thanks to u yap. 30 mins has passed, the taxi stopped in front of my dorm's building- literally looks like an apartement. I pay him along with tips. well am such a philanthropist human, arent I. I walk my pace inside the building, Get into the lobby. walk towards the elevator, and press the 'eighteen' floor numbers. It wasnt reach few minutes, i was already on the 'eighteen' floors unit which my room was here. I walk towards my room.  But...there is someone stay in front of my room.

 

I knew him...so well. but in the past. 

Tbh...I dont want to greetings him. Dont want to. so i just stand in my place with full of questions in my head. im standing beside him- but not really beside him. there were some distances between us. Well if he sees me...thanks to my blouse, my blouse had 'im too y too my ex' written in it design. 

 

"Ah. Lily" He realized that i was near him. he walked towards me. "Its so hurt to see u...u know. u decide to break up with me..." He muttered himself and stop he pace when there was just any distance betwen us. he should know he was the one who hurts me.

 

I laugh myself, "Leave." I give him a sharp glance, but he doesnt care. Im sure he was drunk, the fragments its comes to my nostrils. 

 

"I regret since i broke up with u..." He walked near me. so near...until he caress my hair with his filthy hand. I dont even feel comfortable so I immediately slap his hand.

 

"Dont touch me. i warn u" there is nothing can make my nerves up. Im so afraid of him. like...HE WAS DRUNK AFTER ALL. how could i win?

 

He pushed me onto my room's door. he grips my shoulders.

It hurts af. I grimace in pain. 

 

"I'LL CALL SECU--" I wanted to scream badly but he muffled my mouth. how dare him. 

 

Out of blues, He being kicked by someone behind him, he kissed the door beside me, he fell onto freeze floor, and he run into lift. cant tell who kicked him, because he closed his face with glasses and covered his nose-until-mouth with masker. how did i know he is boy? From his voice. he comes near me. I bow to him. 

 

"Are u okay?" he uttered. i just nod and left him behind. because i immediately opened my room. feeling enough with fighting stuffs. I fall my body onto couch, and fall into deep sleep without change my clothes.