Seungri

He cupped my face in his hands. They were cold. They were trembling. He was scared.

We both knew very well how our futures would turn out if we continued in this direction.

I knew it all too well.

I’ve never felt so...empty. I knew this would be our end, but, I’ll smile. I’ll smile the smile he always loved. The smile that I knew warmed his heart.

All this time I’ve been looking down.

All this time, my eyes were beneath me. My eyes, that were always careful of where I would step.

I didn’t want to look into his eyes, but I wanted to see him. I wanted to see Kwon JiYoung, not GDragon.

I’m scared. I’m so terribly scared.

I shifted my head so that now I was looking straight into his eyes. In an attempt to read his eyes, I noticed I had been holding my breath.

Why look for an answer in his eyes when I already know what he’s going to say?

Ah, this is it. I felt my vision getting blurry. This feeling of not being able to breathe. This squeezing of my heart.

Then I thought again.

Why is this world so unfair?

Why were we born like this?

Why did we have to meet like this?

Why did we have to fall in love?

Why…

Why is this love so wrong?