I sat beside her tombstone... 

 

Lee Jihye 

July 29th 1993 - July 10th 2018 

 

I grazed her tombstone and I stared to talk 

 

"I'm waiting for you to come back. Although I know it won't happen." I said and sigh

 

"Do you know how much it hurts? you left me without saying goodbye. it breaks my heart. 

 

Do you know how much I miss you?

Do you know that I think of you

every second

everyday

and every night ever since you left?

 

I love you so much 

I love you more than I love myself 

 

I miss your smile 

Your laugh 

Your hugs

Your kisses 

Your everything 

 

I miss every second we spent together 

 

Do you remember the day I confessed to you? 

We were in high school then...

You were my senior and I'm your shy junior 

I tried everything to ask you out and on the 8th time I asked you out you finally agree to go on a date with me.

 

I still remember the first time we hold hand

Our first hug

Our first kiss 

Our first trip together 

Our first time doing it too...

Haha it was really awkward huh? 

 

Remember the first time you introduce me to your parents? I was so scared back then but thanks to you everything went right" I smiled 

 

"Jihye-ah....

 

I regret that day when we fought and I decided to leave you alone at the restaurant 

 

I'm sorry I did that

I'm sorry for leaving you alone 

I'm sorry for everything 

 

You know... I planned on proposing to you on you birthday.

 

I have everything set up. The rings. Your favorite restaurant booked. I've got your father's blessing too. 

 

But fate doesn't allow it to happen" I paused as a tear falls from my left eye

 

"You left. Forever. And I believe that it's my fault

 

If only I didn't left you there alone and let you go home by yourself. If only you didn't cross the rode alone. If only I didn't get jealous because of him. If only we didn't fought. If only I was there with you. If only I wasn't an idiot. I think I won't be alone right now. I think you'll be in my arms right now.

 

I'm sorry for not being there for you.

I'm sorry for making you cry.

 

It's been 5 months without you

And within that 5 months I was fired from my job.

I kept on daydreaming about you.

I can't focus on my job haha silly me" I said and chuckled bitterly tears fall from my eyes like waterfall

 

"I don't feel like going out of the house anymore too

I didn't talk to anybody 

I was okey for 3 days.

I comforted your parents and they comforted me too. But after that everything crashed down on me. I'm nothing without you.

You were my world and My world is gone now 

I don't feel like doing anything 

The only thing I did was cry and blame myself.

I eat of course. 

I eat the snacks that you bought before you left. 

Those Cheetos that you buy for yourself 

I ate it all haha I'm sorry." I wipe my tears with the sleeves of my sweater

 

"Jihye-ah I'm sorry if you'd be disappointed in me.

 

But when I leave this place I have something planned out. And I know it'll disappoint you. I'm sorry. But I hope I'll be seeing you when I'm done with my plan. 

 

I love you I think I'll be taking my leave now. See you in the other world" I graze the tombstone one more time and kissed it.

 

I stood up and left the grave... 

I went to my car and started to drive.

After a 5 minutes drive I see a tree I started to step on the gas pedal hard and drive to it..

 

The next thing I know everything went black. 

 

I saw her.

She was there....

 

Finally we're reunited my love.