Early in the morning the next day saturday,,as what hyun joong's father instructed him they had to report at the office for some matter....

HYUN JOONG POV

waking up as early as 5 am or rather say he didn't actually slept that well,, being alone at his bed without young saeng beside him, argghhh its a hell for him, its the first time had happen for long years,, he misses him he thought his mistakes,, he was thinking what to do..thinking how he can please young saeng back,, he was thinking,, is this really the end of us? why did i say that..lots of questions pop out on his head that makes it heavy...

"Ahhh i almost forgot,,, he remembered....he run through young saeng's unit...He slowly open the door and walk through the bedroom,, he open the bedroom door quietly...

"He found young saeng still asleep,, in deep sleep, he knelt down on the side bed facing young saeng..he run his index finger on young saeng's soft face....

"He spoke,,, mianhae huh,,,it was my fault,, i was wrong,, i didn't expect that i could do say those words,,it's all my wrong, please forgive me.. i know i hurt you but it hurts more on me i shoudn't had say such words like that...he teared up...

"young saeng moved and he wiped his tears as quickly as he can before young saeng will open his eyes and stood immediately...

"young saeng ah... father called me,, they want us to report at the office..they will discuss some important matters i think...

"Now? young saeng simple response..

"Yes..i will fetch you later,, i will just take my shower in my unit,, we're running out of time..he said and left...

YOUNGSAENG POV

"Hyun joong left after he told him,,,

"He stretch his arms and get up from bed,,,as he step in on the shower room,, he suddenly felt pain on the chest and breath deeply to catch some air...he rub his chest repeatedly,,, ahh again,,,is this because of last night? he mumbled and thought...

*flashback

"he drunk too much,, the last thing he remembered is he fainted infront of kyu jong and jiyoung....

"And saw hyun joong staring at him as he woke up and already in a room...

"While they were arguing,,,and hyun joong repeatedly apologizing,, he was just really talking a little..because he felt like he don't have enough air to breath.. he didn't showed it to hyun joong,, but to endure it by his self...

"While he was waiting for hyun joong at the car,, he hardly pressed and rub his chest as if he needs to catch more air,,,he felt it repeatedly once in a while while on their way home...

"He washed his face in the sink as soon as they reach home and again felt breathless but rubbing his chest makes him relieved so he didn't say to hyun joong...

"He told hyun joong that he was already sleepy and lay down on bed back facing him...and continue catching his breath..

"But hyun joong attempted to use him forcefully to let the caller hear them,,,so he just cried out,,,,

"hyun joong didn't notice it so he just left him alone.... he endured it the whole night so he didn't had enough sleep...

**end

"nothing serious about it actually,,, they asked a doctor already so they don't have to worry much about it,,, its just that an effect of alcohol in his body that's why he felt it naturally especially when drink too much,,,

"he wonder..how many bottles did i drank? seems had the longest effect on me...

"Alcohol is really dangerous,,, good thing i am still alive...he mumbled while rubbing his chest and after he breath normally he took his shower and get dressed and prepare...

"young saeng didn't wait for hyun joong to come at his unit instead he waited at hyun joong's floor near the elevator...

"Then hyun joong came and saw him standing...eo wasseo,, did you wait long?...

"Young saeng just shook his head without even looking,, and immediately press to open the elevator...

"Want to eat first before going there? hyun joong asked again....

"young saeng shook his head again as response..

"aren't you gonna talk to me? still mad at me? hyun joong asked for the nth time..

"Young saeng just keep playing on his hair..

"Hyun joong felt bad but he didn't show, he pat his hand on young saeng's back and it up and down, mianhae,,i understand,,you need time in order to forgive me...

"The elevator sound to opened...Young saeng walked first and went to the car...

"at the car young saeng just keep looking outside and keeps in silent....

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They reach the office waited at the private room where they usually had their lecture... secreatary ahn came,,

"Noona,, what is all about for today? i thought we are done already? young saeng finally spoke...

"ahhh nothing,, don't worry no training today and until you graduated as we had agreed,,we know both of you were busy at school..your preparation is already done,,, secretary ahn answered..

''Then why we are here? hyun joong asked..

"Ok..,, we are here now just to show your future office...

"Jinjja? isn't it too early? young saeng said..

"Aniya.. still 6 months to wait so hyun joong's father suggested that we prepare it soon,, so  secretary Lee (kim's personal secretary) prepared all of it..

"So it seems that we won't really get away with our future...young saeng said in husky voice and cough once,,, he pouted as he hold his chest...

"Hyun joong notice it finally...gwaenchanha? he asked in concern...

"Young saeng nodded in response.. anyway,, noona can you show us the office now,,, i want to rest already...

"Ahhh ye,, follow me...

"Secretaries they were passing by greeted them...

"Where is your table noona? young saeng asked in curiousity..

"Ahhhh my table is just right beside your father's office, same as with mr.lee..we shouldn't join other secretaries since our work is general and personal.....

"They reach the location..here, both of you will share the office since you will be working together...she showed...

"Isn't it the room is huge... hyun joong amused..

"aniya.. anyway,, if your father will retire both of you will transfer on their offices so i think this was just temporary while your father still working...

"Jinjja??? now i know how big is our responsibilities... i don't like it... hyun joong said and sitted on his table...

''The room is well furnished and well prepared,,, their taking over is the one missing...

"Noona jamkan... can you please give me some water please.. young saeng bit her lower lip and close his eyes while asking the favor and keeps hitting his chest....

"The secretary immediately called to the secretary outside to bring water...

"hyun joong grab young saeng to face him..since when your heart palpitates and had hard breathing?.. you really drunk too much? hyun joong worriedly asked and let him breath deeply,,..

"Young saeng didn't answer,,, noona did you ask someone to get me water? young saeng tried to endure it...

"Yes,, just wait a little...

"The water came,,,ok go now thank you,,, secretary ahn told the one who brought the water..

"Come here...hyun joong sitted him on the couch and let him breath deeply,,,he loosened the necktie and opens the first three buttons revealing the chest...and gave the water to drink..drink it all,,he said..

"Ani shall i call a doctor? ms.ahn suggested..

"aniya,,, it's ok... i just need to rest.....young saeng refused

"Ms. ahn can you turn the aircon higher? hyun joong said.. when did you feel that you are out of breathing?

"last night....he answered roughly

"last night and you didn't told me? hyun joong scold

"For what? should i? you even attempt to r......young saeng stopped..

"ahmm i will just go outside first...ms. ahn interrupted seems she understand that she needs to let them alone...

"ahh ye noona gomawo.. and please don't let abeoji knows about this..young saeng told her.. i will just rest for a while and we will go home already....

''Ahh arrasseo...rest well...

"You should have told me about this... you slept alone what if something had happen to you? what if your heart palpitate so hard and can't breath? what if you didn't woke up this morning.... what if,,,,

"You are afraid that i might die?

"Of course..! it's all my fault..do you think i can endure it,,, do you think i can forgive myself if i loose you?

''Nice words...young saeng stood up and put back the buttons and necktie as he gained his normal breathing....i want to go home now..

"are you sure...are you ok now?

"yes im ok..

"They go home as soon as young saeng got well....

"Young saeng ah,,, hyun joong called and pulled him back to him and hugged him as soon as they reach living room...im still thankful that you are still ok..i am just worried and afraid that we will end..,, please don't leave me...you're not planning to leave me right?

"What if i do? youn saeng unexpected question..

"Hyun joong pulled out and looked at young saeng on eyes with surprise in his face..

"What if i decide to end our relationship? young saeng asked once again..

"are you serious?

"young saeng smirked...

''please don't do this to me.. i can't even know how to live without you,,,please... i know its my fault but you can't just end us like this...

"as we both know,, our future depends on our parents,, so why don't we try to accept it...

"No,, i can't,, you can't,, i will not accept what you are saying..it's just that,, you are just mad at me...hyun joong starts to teared up...

"We should try...

"No im not agree with that... we promised that we will never leave each other as long as we can...

"Yes,, as long as we can,, i think this is the right time for us to move on.. i will take my fate and go back to nicole,, im sure she's still willing to accept you...

"No... i will never love another person,, just you,, only you,,, even they will force me to marry someone i will definitely gonna oppose into it,, i need you because i love you so much...so please don't joked infront of me,,,

''I am serious...hyun joong in 6 months we will able to face our obligations,, our fate,, our so called future....

"i don't care..what i know is that i only need you...don't fool around for goodness sake...please...

"its just my thought anyway...young saeng turned around and went to bedroom....

"What do you mean? im sorry!? young saeng i love you so much please don't do this to me....! hyun joong keeps screaming..

"Im sleepy,, i want to rest and i want to sleep....young saeng said and banged the door of his room...

"what doeas he mean? i mean is he really planning to end this up...andwae...i could possibly die if he will do this to me...hyun joong felt weak on his knees and fall down to the couch.. impossible,,,impossible,,he loves me too...

YOUNGSAENG POV

"He threw his self on the bed..and thought everything they had converse...

*flashback this morning

"he still sleeping when felt someone came,but didn't open his eyes,,it's hyun joong he thought..

"He heard him spoke...mianhae huh,,,it was my fault,, i was wrong,, i didn't expect that i could do say those words,,it's all my wrong please forgive me.. i know i hurt you but it hurts more on me i shoudn't had say such words like that...and heard him change the voice in husky like he was crying...

"He moved and saw hyun joong wiping the cheek maybe a tear or what...

*end

"He really felt sorry,, but he hurts me,, why he told me he was tired of me already? he is so pitiful a while ago,, i know he was hurting too with what i had said..

*flashback a while ago

"Young saeng ah,,, im still thankful that you are still ok..i am just worried and afraid that we will end..,, please don't leave me...you're not planning to leave me right?

"What if i do?

"are you serious?

"young saeng smirked...

''please don't do this to me.. i can't even know how to live without you,,,please... i know its my fault but you can't just end us like this...

"No,, i can't,, you can't,, i will not accept what you are saying..you are just mad at me..please, please don't leave me....

"i will take my fate and go back to nicole,, im sure she's still willing to accept you

*end

"am i that cruel? but  why did i say that... going back to nicole? what if he do that...andwae...i can't....young saeng rolled his self on bed side to side and wiggled...

"He fell asleep and hyun joong didn't disturb him,,,,

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HYUN JOONG POV

He was at the couch and fell asleep too when the doorbell rang..he opened it and saw his friends with jiyoung along...

"Eo... what are you all doing here?

"Nothing,, just visiting you both and yeah its...its a boring day....jungmin stuttered..

"Ahhh jinjjayo? he said and shoot kyu jong a sharp glare...

"oppa mianhae,,, jiyoung mouthed to him...

"Aehhhh,, where is young saeng? hyung jun asked and went inside to find...

"He's at the room,,sleeping....hyun joong shouted...

"Can i wake him up? hyung jun asked...

"No let me do it...

"Eo arrasseo...

"Can we enter now? hyung jun already inside.. won't you invite us to get in? jungmin said..

"he step aside and give them way to get in...

"wait i will wake him up...he said..

"were you two ok now? jungmin carelessly asked...

"hyun joong glared sharply...aniyo,,!!!

"ah ok... guys let's sit and wait... jungmin looked away and suggest..

YOUNGSAENG POV

"While sleeping he heard some noise,,,but ignore it since he was too sleepy...

"Then the door opened...and saw hyun joong....

"kyu jong and others are here? hyun joong told him as he open his eyes, half open...

"what are they doing here,,, it's saturday it's supposedly their family day...

"I don't know, they were looking for you,, so you better meet them now...

"I can't face them...nothing to say...they will just pester us to what happen..

"if you don't want them to pester you here you better get out and see them...

"Tsk.. arrasseo!  he get up and washed up,,,

"After 5 minutes...young saeng came to living room...

"Annyeong!!! all of them greet in unison...

"Oppa annyeong....jiyoung hesitantly greet...and hide behind kyu jong..

"yahhh what are you doing? kyu jong whispered..

"nothing..young saeng oppa looks scary again,, i think we disturb him from sleeping...jiyoung said in low tone.....

"It's ok..you don't have to be scared.. young saeng heard her and chuckled...

"ahh de mianhada...she apologize..

"anyway,, what brings you here? young saeng asked while sitted beside kyu jong ...

"nothing just want to see you both and have fun....kyu jong said..

''The truth.....hyun joong added

"ok... we mentioned what happen to young saaeng last night to them and yeah this morning they pester me to go here and checked..yaahhh you drink a lot last night so we got worried that you might got to have a problem in breathing...you scared me that night...kyu jong turn to young saeng and nag..

"isshhh is that all? im fine now...

"So it means you really had.....jungmin said..

"He felt it last night but didn't told me,,, i just notice and knew it when he run out of breath while we were at the company this morning... hyun joong told them..

"jinjja?!! you are so,,, why you didn't told him,, do you wanna die? kyu jong worriedly scold him..

"Is it that an ill or what? jiyoung asked..

"ani,, it's just that he always experience it when he drinks too much...kyu jong answered..

"im ok now,, im fine,, perfectly fine....you don't have to tell them,, they will just get worried,, look at them..young saeng irritatedly told hyun joong...

"Im just worried ok,,,same as them,, they are your friends,, do you think they don't have concern? hyun joong slightly raise his voice...

"jamkan...you didn't talk yet? do you wish to continue like this?...hyung jun questioned..

"I don't know to him,, ask him ...hyun joong said and walked through the kitchen....

"jungmin signaled hyung jun to follow him..

"Young saeng, do you know how worried hyun joong is last night? he even got crazy asking us,, scolding us because we let you drink too much..he can't even know if he will take you to hospital or what because you might had a breathing problem...kyu jong told...

"wae? why he bother to tire himself....

"is that all what you think? ani.. that's just a word, tired, and he didn't mean it,, you are just so sensitive altely i think.. 

"a word but its hurtful...

"Hurtful but do you know how sorry he is and how he was suffering now because of what he had said...

"Maybe oppa,, you are just over reacting.. i see how he cares for you so much and how dedicated he is on you...jiyoung added..

"molla..  i even told him that,,, what if i will end our relationship now...

"Mwo? are you insane? i mean  for almost 7 years you decided to end up like this?

"Aniya i mean,, i was just telling him that what if i will leave him now....

"and now.. do you think he is not hurt? that's the worst hurting words that you might just think to rather die instead of leaving someone...

"Oppa.. kyu oppa is right he was hurt even more than what you had felt i think...

"A phone vibrated they search on it and found it on the couch....is this yours jiyoung asked...

"No.. it's hyun joong phone...

"I think someone is calling,, want to answer it? kyu jong reached the phone to him..

"No i won't maybe it is his caller...i will not answer it,, he will be freak out if i do...

"ani..it wasn't saved,,,,

"Jiyoung get the phone to check too... oppa,,it's an over-seas call, she looked at kyu jong and gave it..

HYUN JOONG POV

"at the kitchen,,, he pretended he was doing something but deep inside he wants to scream out the pain that he was feeling now...

"Are you ok? the two asked in softness to comfort him..

"I will say a lie if i told you im ok...

"is it really hurt? hyungjun asked the obvious..

"he can hurt me physically and i can endure everything even if its the hurtful words because i love him but the word saying he gonna leave me and break our relationship...i can't endure it if he do that...

"breaking up? you two will breaking up? the two got surprised...

"Is he serious? maybe he was just joking....hyung jun said

"Ani.. i don't know if it is true or just making a prank,, but since yesterday we haven't talk in normal.. we always argue and yelling each other,,..this is the longest fight we had...we even sleep separately to each other,,,

"Mwo? but why it ended up like this... but who was the caller that he got so insecure like this...kyu jong told us, if you want to know where the hell i got the information,, according to him young saeng told the two about what happen and its all started with that caller?

"that caller is freaking me out for almost 2 years,,but i kept it to young saeng,,i didn't know he was suspecting me already and aware of how i answered that call,, he didn't confront me anyway so i didn't confess anything and thinking that i am cheating on him...

"But who was that..don't tell me its......jungmin sighed........

"You must do settle this things and explain to him...... hyung jun added..

"I did not cheated him,, but it goes worst when i said some innappropriate words that it shouldn't be said...

"you can't blame young saeng it's your fault at first but  young saeng is really harsh with breaking up on you,, you two must talk,,,ok?

"kaja.. we must go back there now..you have to settle this now..jungmin adviced and goes back to theliving room...

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At the living room,,

"kyu jong ah,, we need to go now,,,jungmin said as they reached the others sitting on the living room..

"ahhh wae? kyu jong asked...

"Geunyang,, i think they need to settle this problem today so they have to do it now...jungmin explains..

"ahh its a good idea.. you two,, you have to do what jungmin said,,we will asked you about this,, oh ani,, we want to see both of you getting along well on monday.... kyu jong added...

"the two just glared each other...

"kaja...jiyoung and i still have a date....kyu jong added and put his hand around jiyoung...

"Jinjja!? then jungmin and i will go out too..hyung jun said,,,

"After the others had left,,they both sat up on both ends of the couch..no one is talking,,,Hyun joong turn on the TV to break the silence while young saeng plays a game on his phone...

"Young saeng lay down on the couch head is one  feet space from hyun joong's lap..

"Hyun joong release a deep breath and cup young's face in one hand and squeeze a little on the shoulder.. without words even a simple words he didn't say...

"Young saeng just touched,, and know that hyun joong misses him so much and wants to reconcile already,, with the soft touch and squeeze that hyun joong had made,, he can say and he knows what are those moves means..

"want to eat? i will prepare for our dinner,,,wait a little...hyun joong said and went to prepare...after cooking he served it at the table,, he called him and eat together...

"Just after they ate..young saeng went to the bed room and prepare to sleep...he lay down...

"Hyun joong followed him...sleepy already?,,,sleep well don't think too much so you can get enough sleep...I think i'll sleep at my unit again this night...just call me if you feel something strange again..he squeeze young saeng's arm and about to give him a kiss but he control himself not to do it instead he run his finger on his face and stood up to go...

"Aniya!! young saeng told him,,, just stay,,,,i mean,, you can stay here,,,just sleep here...

"Hyun joong smiled...

"ani,, i am just afraid that i might get breathing problem so,,so better if,, if you stay,,,here,,,that's all... young saeng move his eyes side by side and put the blanket after he talked...crap what the hell? ishhhh,, so obvious,you are just afraid to be alone young saeng...he thought...

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...update again,,, i think you sense it already..keke,,hehe the breathing problem i just insert it ehe,,, someone had thought of it,, since yeah i already thought of including it on the first,, like young saeng will gonna faint and wil bring him in the hospital but i think i did it already on the previous story,,ehe,,,but  yeah i hope this is fine too.. you were in a hang right but don't worry i think in this chapter you had sense who was that caller....leaving behind and still not revealing but i made it obvious here...enjoy thanKYU...