As i get up from the dirty floor, the blood oozing like no tomorrow, why bloood why you betrayed me. Please stop flowing!

Im late to class plus my uniform is ruined by blood and some mud dirt. First day of class, and im absent, what a day! 

I go back to my room to change, and probably to cry it out, maybe this is what’s Gods plan for me, to make my life misserable. 

I go back to sleep wanting not to wake up anymore if i will die soon why not now? 

I feel so heavy, this emotions is killing me, my chest starting to ache but i ignore it, i will use that pain to make me fall asleep, it ache so much, it hurts so so much, i hold my chest to sooth it, why God why this is happening to my life. Why! 💔