Joy POV

before the break up 

i open my eyes and hold my phone i sigh when i didn't found any calls or messages i didn't call sehun for week and he didn't even call i get up and take shower 

we will go to Seoul tonight this is my last day here my parents will stay away so i will live with my cousins  in Seoul or maybe SM dorms because now i am SM trainee 

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"good bye eomma appa" I said I sit next to chanyeol oppa "wow you really get taller sooyoung" he said I chuckled "what you think I will stay short?" he nodded "oppa I will go somewhere" I said and stand "okay but don’t be late or get lost okay?" he said I nodded and walked out I get in taxi and told him the address I give him the money and walked inside the apartment building I get in the elevator I click or floor number 3 when the elevator door opened I walked to sehun door I put the password and went inside "SEH…." I stopped talking when I saw him kissing that girl

Sehun POV

"SEH…."I saw sooyoung tears in her eyes looking at us I felt guilty but I can't continue the lie "why?"sooyoung said "sooyoung I am sorry but from the beginning I didn’t love you as best friend yes but as woman no" I said  "what do you mean you don’t see me as woman then did you see me as man am I ugly?"sooyoung said "I mean you never looked like woman or act like woman you are like my boy friend but that not the reason I don’t  know but I didn’t feel anything for you" i said she slapped me in the cheeks "look like woman act like one? That not the reason why you should love me you should love as who I am not how I look or how I act" she said and run away I sigh now that what I don’t want losing my best friend

Joy POV

I don’t know where I am but I just want to cry alone I sit on the bench and start crying how he dare to tell me that I am just like boy friend I know I am not that beautiful but its harsh to say it in my face that girl looked beautiful but… wow I never imagine that I sehun my best friend since we born hurt me like that I felt broken for the first time he is my first love but I think I am not his why? Because I am like boy I chuckled when I compare between me and the girl but you don’t love person for how he look if he love me he won't look at how I look right? "its bad for girls to stay out at night you know?" I looked at the stranger who said that he sit next to me "you are crying? What did your boyfriend break up with you" he said and chuckled  my eyes full with tears again "so it's right I am sorry" he said and patted my back "am I ugly?"I told him "no who told you that?" he said "he broke up with me because he never saw me as woman and because I never act like one and he told me that he see me as boy friend not even as girl" I said "is he blind?" he told me I smiled a little he smiled "the way you smile is enough to call you  beautiful" he said "you should smile more you know instead of crying show him how beautiful you are" he said "so are you okay now?" he said I nodded and smile but it’s a lie I hope I was okay "I know you are not but let him regret what he said" he said "now go home" he said "hmmm do you know where I am" I said he laugh "did you run away and now you don’t know where are you?" he said "how did you know " I said "I know everything now tell me where your house" he said

I closed the gate and open the house door when I get inside I saw chanyeol and yoona unnie "sooyoung where you were its late you don’t pick up and you don’t know the way did you know how worry we was" chanyeol oppa said I blink my eyes welcome to hell sooyoung chanyeol oppa is scary when he get mad he rarely get mad but when he get mad he won't calm down until the next day he is scary "yah chanyeol you scared her" yoona unnie said and hit his head "noona I should scold  this ugly baby "he said I don’t know but I remember what sehun told and my tears fall "sooyoung" yoona unnie hugged me and glare at chanyeol "can everyone stop saying that I am ugly I know I am ugly but that hurt a lot" I yell "who said that you are ugly" chanyeol oppa said "you stupid" yoona unnie said "I mean who the another one who said that you are ugly" chanyeol oppa correct himself "chanyeol just go I want to talk with her" yoona unnie said and walked to my room when we get inside she closed the door and make me sit in the couch "sooyoung-ah did any one told you that your ugly did they bully you" she said " my boyfriend cheat on me and told me that he never saw me as woman but as boy friend nothing more nothing less" I said and wipe my tears "unnie I meet someone today he told me that I should show him how beautiful I am and I should make him regret can I, I mean can you help me I want to be a girl a beautiful one"

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First chapter i wish you like it