5. Kontrol

"Sunggyu ya, what are you doing in the studio today? You know that recording is already over right?" Jongwan looked up from his work

"Hyung… the songs are all ready right?" Sunggyu asked

"Yeah, I finished it up yesterday. Why, do you want it? "

"Neh hyung.. And one more thing… Can you do me a favor?" Sunggyu asked meekly

"Why? What is it?"

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"Hayoungie~ Open the door! " Chorong shouted

"Neh unni!" Hayoung dashed to the door and opened it

"Ah..Sunggyu oppa…"

"Hayoung ah, can I talk to Eunji for a while?" Sunggyu requested

Hayoung looked around nervously

"Oppa, but it's not possible.."

"Hayoungie, who is it?" Chorong appeared in the hallway "Ah, sunbaenim."

"Chorongah, let me see Eunji for a while. I promise it won't take much time. There is something I need to give to her." Sunggyu insisted

"Well, too bad. Eunji isn't here. She has a schedule." Chorong replied curtly.

"I'll wait for her here then." Sunggyu decided

"I'm sorry, but that would cause a scene. If you have something to give, then I'll pass it on to her." Chorong replied

"Do you promise that?" he looked at Chorong with unease

"Aissh, what do you take me for? I promise to pass it to her. Or you could ask Hayoungie."

"Okay then. Here. Make sure she listens to it. And if she asks, tell her I'll be in my apartment." Sunggyu passed Chorong a pen drive

After few hours

"Eunji ya, Sunggyu oppa was here to see you. He told me to give this to you." Chorong handed the pen drive to Eunji

"A Pen drive?"

"He asked you to listen to it..Eunji ya.. I know how hard it was when you broke it up with him… and I know that you still miss him. It's up to you to decide what you want to do with this pendrive. But remember, whatever you do we will be there to support you..  "

Eunji smiled at how concern Chorong was

"You are right unni.. Thanks unni. I love you."

Eunji put off listening to the pen drive as long as she could. Finally, after taking a long bath she sat down on her bed to listen to it..

The moment she played the record in the pen drive, Sunggyu's voice spilled out from her head phone..

Eunji ya…I'm glad you decided to listen to this…

You know that I have hard time saying stuffs like this in real time, so I decided to record it instead..

Eunji ya.. You are the last person whom I'd want to hurt..When there were some days that were really hard for me, your smile was the only reason I got through those days.

The fact that I was the reason those beautiful smiles got wiped from your face.. I don’t think I'll ever forgive myself for that..

I curse myself everyday for the day in my apartment… I have no excuses for how I behaved that day. The fact of seeing you and mom at the same place.. I simply wasn't prepared for that. That wasn't how I had planned on introducing you to mom.. after I returned to my apartment that day, I told my mom about you.. she was so angry with me that she didn't speak with me for weeks.. she said that she would like to meet you someday..

And there is something I haven't told you… Whenever I see you, I wear my heart on my sleeves. Or at least that's what the INFINITE members say. Do you know how much hard time I have when we are together for shows? How much I have to restrain? Because if I look at you, or even talk to you, the whole world would find out how much I care for you..

Right now isn't the right time for the world to know about us..but if you insist, I'll even do that for y