I don´t know how to go forward anymore.
I know I can´t stop now, I can´t let myself fall down anymore,
but you are the reason why I started to fight
and I can´t even meet you to thank for it.
It hurts to think that you´ll never know me.
It´s like having a huge hole inside that is almost breaking
me in half. Nothing can fill it but you.

I'm trying hard to be strong, to keep my head cool
to detach myself from you and all these thoughts.
But letting myself away from thinking of you means
at the same time that I'll fall again, deeper than before.
Is that even possible?

I sometimes wish I had never known of your existance,
but I am trapped now in you. Trapped forever.
Trapped with no hope to ever be close to you.
All of this is not your fault.
It is not your fault to be the man you are. With all your
flaws I love you. I wouldn't do it if you were perfect.
You've given me the strength to raise myself up even though
I knew I'd never ever meet you. I can only wish you happiness.
All the happiness you deserve. I send you my part of happiness in this life,
since without you, I am nothing and nothing I will be.