"Jongin-ah, gomawo for companying me playing the roller coaster.."

Hyunnie, my childhood friend thank me, i just can forced a smile to her

"Even tough that it's not like what i have been imagine, still my dream to feels how to fly finally came true today because of you.." She added

"YA!! Hyunnie, of course i will do it for you.. You're my bestfriend." "NEO!! KIM JONGIN!! HOW DARE YOU CALL ME HYUNNIE?? It's very childish you knkw.'' She said while puffing her checks.. Ah.. How i wish i can cherished this moment 

" Hahaha, OMG i just realize that it's already your 99 wish.. 1 more to go.." 

"You're right, you know time goes by if we're with someone who we love.." " Eh, you just confess to me?? Wow!! I don't know that shortie love me.." I said jokingly

YAH!! I didn't confess to you!" "But, you just said that right, that time goes by if we're with someone who we love, that means that you love me right??" " Well, about that.. Of course i love you, you're my bestfriend.." I only can forced a smile hearing that last sentence.." So, what is your last wish??" I changed the topic

"My last wish is to........."

The pastor already gone home, relatives encourage each other, and i only can stay quier in front of you.. Your gravestone stand still like it's laughing at my dropping tears that've been covered with the raindrops, your name in that stone remind me as i failed to fulfill your last wish.. 

I remember that time, when there's no worries, and cries, there's a lot of moment that i remember.. When we play hide and seek together with tge others, when Mr. Kim yelled at us because we broke his window when we play baseball with the others and also when we study together in your house, with your mom homemade green tea latte..

My world began to crumble when i heard from your mother that you only can lived for about 3 months.. I bet you can't imagine my face when you faint in the middle of the math class.. Do you know that Mrs Hwang cried the loudest in your funeral?? Kris-hyung cried for the first time?? Funny right?? The most scariest teacher in the school and our coldest friend can cry like that..

I'm stunned, when i see your strong face.. I'm embarrassed, you're the one who suffered, but i'm to stupid to even realize your pain. I didn't know behind that face, you've been crying when you sure that no one is watching.. But i see it.. I see it when I'm punished by Mr. Kwon for being late.. Can you imagine it??

"I already make my 100 bucket list.. Let's do it together.. Just the two of us.."

" I promise that i will fulfill all your 100 bucket list.."

I feel sad because your word make me realize that this is real, that you will leave me.. I want to blame the world who will take you from me... But, in the other side i feel happy because i know that i can do something with you, even it's just 100 time, or more true 99 time

Visit the ghost house in Busan, even though i don't know why must in Busan, Eating sea urchin in "Japanese House", even visiting the Running Man set, and asked Yoo Jaesuk and Kang Gary sign.. Everytime we finished your wish, i feel sad because it means that you wil go away sooner

There's a lot of things that i want to tell you, but i can't... laugh, cries, even pity that you gave to me... I feel that what have i done to you won't even enough compared to what have you done to me

12:11 p.m , it means that i already failed to fulfill my promise.. While panting i only can stand in front of room 409 in " Seoul National Hospital". Inside that room, i can see your parents cried in front of you, your frozen body is laying in the bed, it feels that you're laughing at my failure to fulfill your last 100 wish

12:00 p.m.... is it that hard to come in time for celebrating Christmas with you?? Is it that hard to decorate your room together while eating the cake that i made for you?? But.. it seems that fate hate us being together.. In my head, i only can remember your last wish, my first failure.

" My last wish is to celebrate my last Christmas with you.. Just the two of us.."

The last raindrops fell above your gravestone

(it's been a long day without you my friend)

I will always keep the memories that you gave to me, in my heart

(and i'll tell you all about it when i see you again)

Did you see me right now from above?? Do you remember our memories right now, like i remember it??

(we've came a long way from where we began)

I turned around, and walked away from your grave yard.. I can feel the wind past through me like it's telling me to stay strong.. Without realizing, i smile genuinely for the first time in this past 3 months

(oh i'll tell you all about it when i see you again)

Goodbye my friend, Seo Joo Hyun