Due to frustrations again, i ended up going to the park. I don't know why but i am accepting that maybe i can see him there again. You know, vander. And i am not mistaken. He was there sitting and waiting for someone. He looks so sad but why he is still that handsome. "People become ugly when they have problems but how can you stay so handsome eventhough it is obvious that you have a problem?" crazy why can't you stop your mouth from saying truths without hesitation? "Oh is that so? I know I'm handsome." then he laugh a little. "Yah! Don't laugh you're. . ." this time a hold a little of myself "I'm what?" curious as what i can see in his face "monkey? You look like monkey when you laugh." another useless excuse from Kilauea. "Don't laugh too, you're eyes are missing." is he joking well i count that in. "Hey you monkey." that's what i can only response to what he says. "Kil, why don't we go for a date? A friendly date." my eyes widened but i keep calm. "Why are u calling me only Kil?" that's what the only words i can answer his question, another question. In the end i still accept his friendly date and that's tomorrow evening