Tomoko Woods P.O.V

It's strange how time seems to go so much faster when you have something that you look forward to. Especially when the day was only a day or two away from you. And call me cliche and all that , but it seemed really at that time seemed to fly. Thursday did not even really felt like a whole day for me.. Did it even really happen?. It was getting up, school, homework and return home to care for my mother who was still feeling sick. Today was the same. It was five hours before the concert would begin and I was making myself ready, though I was not sure it would be as good idea to go because my mom was still sick and I'd rather let her not alone when she was sick, as she would forget to take her rest and go out.. I know how she can be. I jumped up from my desk chair when I stabbed in my eye with the brush of my eyeliner, accidentally, instead of just above my eyelashes. My eyes were extremely sensitive, making me have to buy special - and hugely expensive- products, but even with those products my eye immediately began to water and become red when some of it landed in my eye. I cursed softly while I grabbed a tissue and dapped gently around my eye and then I walked to the door. It's not that I stab myself in my eye just for the fun of it, no I was distracted by the doorbell and shot out as a result of it. I opened the door and dashed through the haze of my tears, seeing my uncle Spencer. “Now, what happend to you?” Of course he noticed right away that I was crying, well it didn't feel like it, but it looked like it as i felt the tears on my cheeks.  “Oh, you know I just stabbed myself in the eye with my eyeliner because someone ringed the doorbell” “Do I need to feel guilty now?” “How about yes?” Spencer shook his head, gave me a hug and walked inside. “So, how’s your mom?” “Well, she’s sick.. As you know, but she is doing a little bit better than yesterday” “That’s good to hear.. Why were you all getting dressed up though?” “Well.. The idea was that I would go to a concert with the boys tonight.. But with mom being sick, I don’t think that is such a good idea anymore” “Just go, I can take care of my little sister.” “Mom always says that she is the older one” “By 5 minutes yes, but still she is my little sister” “You’re so unlogic at times”. Spencer rolled his eyes and then he looked me straight in my blue eyes. “You know, I can just look after her for tonight and tomorrow.. You go and have fun with your friends.. You’ve a lot on your shoulders and it cant be good to not take a break from time to time.” “Are you sure that youre okay with that.. You have a life and a Girlfriend too you know” Spencer had been married to his high school lover for years now and they are still so happy together .. Something I still hope will happen to me. I still have around a year and a half for it.  “She is my sister, i know how to take care of her.. And you’re my only cousin, this is the least that I can do” “You pretended to be my dad at the school nights for parents until I was in high school.. You were always there, mom always worked and you looked after me at those times.. How again is that the least you can do?” “We’re family.. that’s how.. Just go and have fun okay?” With that, he walked into the room of my mother and I cursed softly. He always knew to get so far that I had to agree. 

After having eaten something, as a kind of late afternoon snack, I slumped down on the couch in the living room with Spencer. Mom fell asleep immediately after the bowl of soup I made for her, so this gave me and my uncle some more time to talk. I had re-done my makeup and everything was all set to go for when the boys, or at least Nate, would pick me up. “So, which band is it this time?” “SHINee, a Kpop band” “Really? After 5 seconds of summer, All Time Low, Green Day and Paramore you guys were just like ‘hey lets go for a boyband’?” “Yeah pretty much.. We all have been into KPop for the last few years now.. thanks to me and my obsession with BigBang and SHINee.” “Oh god, you dragged the poor boys into this, didn’t you” I nodded, way too proud of myself. “Did you hear anything from your dad?” I shook my head. My father always used to send me letters, certainly five per year. But he never told who he was, what he did for his work .. Nothing. I could not even write him back, he never put his address details in his letters. My mom does, as she apparently send things like pictures and copies of my reports because he seemed to know exactly what I looked like and how bad and good I did in the subjects that I have at school. When I accompanied my mom and asked her about it, she denied it. She said she did not even talked to the "" who is my father. There is only a small thing to all this. We were in May, and I have heard nothing from him since last year May .. It's like he's forgotten all about me .. Let me tell you one thing, not knowing your father is one thing, but knowing that he may have forgotten about you, or that he simply does not care how you are doing, hurts so much more.  “He hasn’t written in  over a year.. I think he’s done with me or something” “It’s his lost really.. He has to miss out on how an amazing daughter he has” “Thanks Uncle Spence.. You really know how to make me feel better” Spencer smiled and gave me a hug. Not much later, the doorbell rang and I picked up my backpack. As always we would spent the night at Jodie his big house. His parents were not home often, so they wre okay with it, as long it were his friends that would spent the night and as long we wouldn't burn down the house. His brother is a 'run away' so we do not hear much from him, his sister lives with his grandparents in California .. So you can imagine how often Jodie is left alone, it is a good thing that he has a boyfriend to look after him. “Take good care of her okay? Wake her up every now and then to check on her and..” “Just go already idiot, I know what I’ve to do, I know my twin remember” I nodded and kissed his cheek, after that I opened the door, with a way too big smile on my face. . His car key slung loosely around his finger. Nate was the only one of our group who could drive a car, I might have had a motorcycle license with no motor for the time being, but that is it for me.. I'm some how afraid that I would crash the car into everything if I would even try to ride one. But Nate had been smart enough to get a car as quickly as possible, and here he  is.. Giving The group rides when it is needed. “the others are already waiting in the car.. Are you ready to go?” I checked for my phone in the pocket of my jeans, when I was sure that it was there I nodded and closed the front door behind me. "Is your mom feeling any better?” “A little bit maybe yes.. Uncle Spencer is with her now, so I think she may be alright for tonight and tomorrow” “Try not to worry too much okay? This is going to be our night!” I nodded and got into his car. Jodie was in the fornt, and Jack was clearly not feeling so happy about that. Normally he was in fact the one who sat in the front with Nate. “Oh god, what happend?” “The boy got in the car before me and claimed my place” “Oh come on Jackie it’s not your car” Jodie had a much too big smile on his face and it was clear to note that he enjoyed the look in the eyes of Jackson a little too much. I can't really judge him for it, since even Jack himself did these kind of things to Jodie all the time .. The two are always together. And then they find it strange that half the school thinks they are boyfriends. This while the other half of the school knows that Jodie has a boyfriend who is already in college. It is always a struggle between the two groups as people who think that Jodie and Jack are a thing do not want to believe that Jodie already has another .. Seriously, I think that it's sometimes even worse of all that Larry shippers all those years ago, you know at the time that one Direction was still a band, and everyone there was almost convinced that the two band members had something going on together.

We arrived, after we had made an intermediate stop at a restaurant, at the concert, many fans were there and the room was filled with the sound of talking fans, fans that were gently together to sing some SHINee songs, ever so softly, and fans that literal were screaming the lungs out of their body .. The usual SHINee at a concert, if we are to believe Nate who had already been to a concert of the band in Japan, where I still am jealous of. The very fact that he went to Japan and that he gotten his parents so far to go with him to a concert of SHINee, where he apparently already bought tickets for, months before he would even go to Japan. We went to our designated places and then began the wait, it would take about an hour before the concert was really starting, but if we would come later,Our places would either been taken, or we couldn't even get to our places anymore thanks to the amount of fans that still had to come. I took my backpack off my back and put it down on the floor beside me, I began to stretch myself, something that I clearly annoyed the crap out of Jodie .. But it might also be because I hit him in the face three times in a row.. Well almost at least.  “Seriously Dino, watch out for the face, I need to stay charismatic.” “Why? Wouldn’t your boyfriend love you anymore if you weren’t as charismatic” Nate slapped Jack hard on his back after that comment. “What? You guys know that I don’t trust that dude” “It has been years Jack, let it go” “Still though, something is up with that boy” “Would you just shut up about my love life? We may be best friends and all, but that doesn’t give you the right to deside who I love and who I don’t love.. Got it, mister I’m so perfect” “Don’t go and cry on my shoulder if he hurts you though” I rolled my eyes and slapped Jack his arm after that. “Let him be Jack, he found love you should be happy.. With that, this is not the time, nor the place to talk about that.. This was gonna be our evening, remember?” He looked in my blue eyes and immediately softened his gaze .. Of course I knew beforehand that I would have an effect on him. I may not be the youngest, the guys still treated me like a younger sister, even if Jack is five days younger than me .. They did always protect me.. Just like on the first day that we ever met eachother. 

It was like most kids would meet. My uncle Spencer had brought me to the park after school, as a seven year old girl was strangely still in love with playing outside, and the outsides as it's whole, unlike many others who sat around with their eyes focused on their mobile. I walked over to two guys, assuming that she would be about the same age as me. However, not knowing that they would be ten .. Ten year olds thought they were the kings and queens of the park. “Hi, I’m Tomoko, what’s your name?” “Tomoko? What’s that for name? Get lost little kid” One of the guys gave me a hard shove and before I could hit the ground, someone else had broken my fall and made sure I wasn't hurt. It was none other than Jodie, who was glaring at the two boys, with an angry look in his eyes. “Just because you’re few years older than her doesn’t mean you can hurt her.. What’s wrong with you, did your mom didn’t give you enough cookies for lunch today?” It may sound stupid now, but back than at that age it was like Jodie was a prince that came to resque me. The boy, who was blonde back in the great old days, walked me to the monkey bars, where two other boys where sitting. Both were smiling.  “Don’t worry about those guys, they will not hurt you, okay? And if you want than you can play with us” I nodded and climbed my way up the monkey bars. "Who’s the girl?” “Don’t be rude Jackson, Jodie brought her, she’s probably nice” “Her name is Tomoko, some guys tried to hurt her so I saved her” “What’s up with you always trying to be the hero?” when the boy with the glasses didn't get a answer he just looked at me and give me a nod. "Anyway, my name is Nate.. do you like pokémon?"  “Of course I do, who doesn’t” “I don’t.. It’s for silly nerds” It seemed like Nate was hurt by the boy with the brown hair, but smiled through it any way.  “Don’t listen to Jackson too much.. He is kinda mean, but he will be more nice when you know him”  "Than I won't. Thank you for earlier.. That was really nice of you." "I'm just nice.. My name is Jodie" That whole noon I was with the boys. That was until Spencer literally had to lift me off of the monkey bars, since I had to go home, but I didn't want to come down. I used to hate being home, maybe it was the atmosphere that always was hanging around, maybe it was because I felt so alone .. I knew one thing for sure, I liked it more to be outdoors. Way more

I can only smile at the memory. The fact that I, after almost ten year, still remember everything so well, proves once again how special this friendship is to me.  “Yo, earth to Tomo, the concert is about to begin.. Or at least the opening act” Nate snapped his fingers in front of my face and I woke up from my oh so nice thoughts.  “Hmm, what did you say?” “Seriously, what’s going on in that head of yours?” I shrugged innocently, which made him role with his pretty blue eyes. “Anyway, the opening act is about to begin.” “Who is it?” “A local singer, I really don’t know why they choose him but he is kinda good I guess” “Didn’t he sing in the club I work a few weeks ago?” “How should we know? You’re the one that’s working there” I smilled at that. Jackson really didn't change at all. At first I just thought he was a mean person, but he had a heart of gold behind all his comments and antics. After the opening act was finished it was announced that it would still take about ten minutes before the concert would begin, it was from that moment that the audience really went off. I decided to take my bag on my back again, as I did not wish someone would stumble over it after that I looked over at the boys.  “I can’t believe that this is really happening” “You say that about every concert we go to” “You were pretty much dying at the 5 Seconds of Summer concert” Jackson and Jodie looked at each other and then gave each other a high five, proud of one another they came with the remark just around the same time, and it was understandable to us. "This is why you guys don’t have any more friends” “Oh Please! I have lots of friends in my classes, you just don’t see it because you follow many different classes” “Leave it to the diva to be offended by that.. You know that Jodie just doesn’t care, try that next time” “Oh you little”  I bent down quickly before he could give me a slap on my head .. It's really strange how often we hit each other, but believe me when I say that it is out of pure love. We would never hit each other hard or something along those lines. There, most of us do not even have the strength for it. The lights went out, and instinctively I went closer to Nate, he knew I was afraid of the dark, the other two would just laugh at me if they knew about this fear. Nate gave me a stick, and screamed in my ear to turn it on. I soon realized that it was one of those luminous things and strangely I felt a lot safer. Being afraid of the dark is just a weird thing to be honest. The music of Lucifer began to play after the intro and immediately the room was somewhat quieter, though there was still enough screams to get deaf from if you would stand in it for too long. 

It was slightly more than three hours later and we were waiting for our turn for the Meet & Greet, Jackson was apparently still too lucky when he bought the ticket, since he was the last and therefore we were last on the list. It was already around ten o'clock in the evening, but it's well worth the wait. It was also not very likely that we would get less time than the others, as the meet & greet's were somehow longer than espected.  “I’m so gonna win Minho over” “For sake Jodie, you have a boyfriend and  he has a boyfriend too.. don’t even think about it” “Hey, who knows maybe I can win him over from Taemin” “Do you hear yourself right now Dip ? You’re really loveable and all, but come on, it’s Taemin you’re up against” “Says the nerd who still has a man crush on Jonghyun” “Nothing wrong with having a man crush” “You’re straight Nate” “Thanks for pointing that out Jackson, I would have almost forget about it.. Also can I live please.. You’re Biual and you also have crushes on woman” “Did you hear what you just said? Of course I can have crushes on both woman and man, I’m BI” “Let him be Jack, he still has to admit to himself that he may be more than just straight.. You know deep inside” “What about you though Tomo? You’re really quiet.. And you’ve been ever since the concert is over, which is over an hour” I looked up to Jack. “It’s nothing, just thinking” “About what? How you’re going to win the old man over?” “Ew, no.. He could be my dad, all of them could by the way, they are all like twice my age.. I really don’t know how you all can talk about them that way” “You do the same with Michael Clifford, and now you think we are the weird ones?” “Yeah, that’s what I’m saying yes” “I swear to god that you really take the things from Spencer” “He is the closeted to a father that I have.. Do you really think that’s so weird?” “Here we go again” Jodie rolde met zijn ogen. “You just had to bring it on again.. Just why” “It’s fun to hear how much she cares about her uncle” “Because it’s the only family she has with her mom counted, idiot” I shaked my head. “That’s not true though, you guys are like family for me too.. Like 3 annoying brothers I never had” “You just had to add the annoying part.. it was almost meaning full” “So close” Added Nate to Jackson while he was shaking his head. Jodie was looking at me with a little pout. “What?” “You love us, it’s so cute” He pinched my cheek and honestly I regreted even saying that. “stop it, i’ll look awfull when we will get in there thanks to you” “Don’t overreact” “Says the one who..” Before I could finish my sentence Jodie had already folded his hand over my mouth and nose, stopping me from talking. I immediately his hand and he pulled his hand away. “Ew.. Tomo why” “Your hand wasn’t smelling that nice.. I don’t even want to know where you have put it last.. did you even wash your hands after going to the toilet?” “Uhm no?” Immediately I opened the bottle of water which I had with me and washed out my mouth.  “You’re so grose.. How can I ever trust you when you do that kind of things” “You were the one who my hand” “Guys” “Well, I was not the one who was putting a hand over someone’s mouth and nose” “Guys” “Well, you were gonna make me feel awkward” “You deserved it t-“ “FOR SAKE GUYS!” Jodie and I blinked our eyes and then looked at Jack who just broke our little fight.“What?”  “We can go in” this was the moment, the moment that I would meet the 5 boys that I've adored since I was around the age of 12 years old.. They helped me grow in the girl who I am today, in some kind of weird way.. Am I really ready for this?

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Well, I finnaly finished that. I'm sorry that it took a while, and it may take a while before I update again, as I start my exams REALLY soon now. Oh well, hope you liked it and as always keep smiling :)

♥ ~ Verena