- I love you! I screamed out, with trembling lips.

- I love you too, Kai, you’re my brother you know… he said with a smile, a smile that somehow seemed a bit fake.

- No you don’t understand… I love you.. I really do… I replied. Tears started flowing down my cheeks now.

- Yeah and I just said that-

- No! You don’t understand! I screamed out louder than before. It felt like the walls were shaking because of my voice.

- Then what the hell do you mean Kai?! Tell me! He answered, he seemed furious. I noticed that he was clenching both of his fists and that they were shaking.

- I love you, I love you more than a brother. I love you… I forced those words out of my mouth. It’s all out now, the truth is finally out.

I closed my eyes, I didn’t have the courage to look at him. My whole body was shaking, I clenched my fists tight together and tears kept on flooding down my cheeks. I could taste the salt from my tears in my mouth. There was a long silence. Fifteen seconds of silence passed. I finally tried to open my eyes, my vision was unclear because by my tears, but I was able to take a look at him. He just stood there, looking down at the floor. Two and a half meters away from me. He was still clenching his fists together and he looked like he was trying to say something. But it seemed like he couldn’t get his words out. Then he suddenly looked at me. I didn’t want to make any eye contact and out of panic my legs started moving. The adrenalin and sorrow which my heart carried made my legs move. I ran with clenched fists and the taste of tears in my mouth. I ran towards the door which he was standing next to. Just as I was about to walk out of the door he somehow grabbed my wrist from behind. I just stood still. I couldn’t connect everything together, it all just happened so fast. We just stood there. No one moved. He held my wrist tight, it almost started to hurt. I turned my head around and I found him looking at me. His facial expression was as if he was crying, but no tears were seen. Suddenly he pulled me backwards, towards him and he let go of my wrist, then he embraced me. He was hugging me. My arms were just resting in the air. I was too shocked by it all. Hyung was hugging me tightly.

- I’m sorry… I’m so sorry… Taemin said with a trembling voice, trying to prevent any tears to fall down his cheeks