Kris'
Can't Shake YouI still change the station
Every time they play that song
Just like now.
I’m driving my car, just got back from work. The radio seems to play this song often this day. I heard it this morning, at lunch, and even now.
The same song, you used to make me listen all day until we graduate college.
Can't drive past your house
So I take the long way home
I take a glimpse on my right side. That’s your way home.
I remember i can’t even look at that side, well, now i can look,
But i still can’t turn.
Your black leather jacket
Still hangin' in my closet
I wish that I could give it away
Oh even though you're gone, somehow you stay
Your stuffs. It’s been a year since then.
Since you came to me to return things i’ve bought for you.
All untouched.
I didn't wanna be here
But my friends all love this bar
I park my car in a too-familiar-place. The only place in town you would visit so often.
Our first fight, the day before you met my parents, our first break up, your first bad day at work.
I finally manage to muster my courage−no−my sanity to come here.
I don’t have any reason to avoid it, anyway.
I don't wanna see you
But I'm wondering where you are
I take a glance around after taking the drink from the bartender.
Well maybe.. i have a slight hope to see you again.
And why am I still keepin'
The shirt you used to sleep in?
It's been sittin' there for over a year
“You guys aren’t together anymore, huh?” the bartender speaks to me.
I smirk, “Obvious enough, right?”
“That’s a pity though. You guys are our favorite customer”
“I believe the opposite. We made you guys broke by giving us free drinks every now and then”
He points to a certain corner “We haven’t get rid of your picture”
I turn my head, to see the picture of me and you, in the wall full of customer’s testimonials. I laugh, maybe a bit bitter.
“Should I?” he says, examining my expression.
“Nah” i shrug my shoulder.
“I think it’s better to just leave it as it is”
I turn my head a bit too sudden because of another voice.
It’s you.
Oh even though you left me you're still here
“Hi” you say.
And you take a seat beside me.
“Haven’t seen you in a while”
I scoff at your remark, “More like a whole freaking year”
And every other time a love said goodbye
I just shake it off, shake it off
“How are you?”
Should i answer?
Pour another drink so I don't feel a thing
I just shake it off, break it off
My voice finally found its way to my throat,
“Been better.
You?”
Erased all your numbers, blocked all your calls
Tried another lover, built up my walls
Told myself it's over, don't know what else I can do
Practically that’s what i do this year, this whole year, after you left me.
Saying you can’t stand me anymore? Remember that?
Of course, yes, i have been way more better.
“I miss you.” You said
I can't shake you
Maybe you can get a hint of how I’m feeling now as you look to my eyes.
Anger?
No, i’m much over that this year.
More like disappointed.
I can't shake you
No matter how hard I try
Can someone hate himself more than I do?
No matter how you left me,
after our precious 4 years,
And all the things I do to forget you,
What slips from my mouth is
“I miss you too.”
You place your hand to touch my cheek,
“So we already passed this?”
I pat your head, resisting the urge to kiss your temple.
“Maybe.”
“Thanks, Kris..
..Meet my fiancée”
I can’t shake you
Maybe i didn’t realize that he’s already behind you since the beginning.
I give him a slight smile,
And introduce myself just to see you smiling.
And grab his arm to dance.
I gulp all the rest of my drink in one go.
Guards down, i didn’t realize when someone pecks my cheek.
“Hey”
I can't shake you
And I don't know why
Here she comes, the one i’m supposed to meet.
The real reason for me to come here.
I smile back sincerely,
Then hold her hand and walk her to dance
I spot you and your boy.
Maybe i’ll introduce her to you, later.
Along with the extrication of our past.
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