"Oppa.....I mean hyung" said youngjae as he woke up

"I can call you hyung now right" 

Jaebum smiled and turned to face youngjae "No"

"Ah..seriously, but hyung....I mean oppa how are you awake before

Me, it's unlike you to wake up so early"

"Just....I couldn't fall asleep" jaebum expression was

Saying it all, and youngjae understood.

"Oppa, I know somethings wrong and I want to hear it

From you than someone else " 

"It's nothing....I ..need to clear my head"

"Oppa.....hyung wait" youngjae called for jaebum but jaebum

Didn't listen and left with his hood.

Jaebum thought of what his mother had said to him and he couldn't

Get his mind away from youngjae's safety.

"There's nothing in this world that last forever" jaebum said to himself

Images of youngjae kept coming to jaebum's head

Youngjae's smile was hard to not remember, especially for jaebum.

There were three things that jaebum was weak against.  Cake, dancing and Youngjae's smile

He could not refuse those three things.

Youngjae had decided to cheer up jaebum with a special breakfast with a hint of love.

Youngjae had prepared alot and was hoping for a happy jaebum after breakfast.

Youngjae smiled and finished what he was doing.

Jaebum came in with sadness written all over his face, he realized how dark

It was but walked towards the bedroom without paying much attention to it.

"Surprise!" The lights and youngjae jumped up from behinf

the table.  Jaebum stopped at the door of his bedroom,  he smiled and 

Looked over at the joy filled youngjae and the biggest smile he had seen so far.

"Wow, when did you prepare all this" 

"While you were gone" 

"Hyung.."

"Ah-ah, what did you call me"

"Ok...oppa, good"

"Look. I don't know what is wrong, but I hope that you will recover from it"

Youngjae put his hand on jaebums cheek holding it softly

"Right now, My heart is beating so fast, that a shock might be enough to

Make me faint. And I'm feeling anxious, because I keep thinking bad thoughts

And I worry about what might happen to us." Youngjae's eyes sparkled and a tear

Drop slid down his cheek to the tip of his chin.

Jaebum looked at youngjae crying without any gasps, which was More serious

Than him crying with gasps and showing it without restraint. 

"Youngjae-ah, I'm sorry really....I'm truly sorry about today, I didn't think about

You at all and my head is full of confusing thoughts and voices and images that

confuse me." 

Jaebum softly held Youngjae's face and ran his thumbs gently under both of Youngjae's eyes

"I'm sorry I made you feel like that, what type of boyfriend am I" 

jaebum pulled a broken youngjae into a hug and held him tight.

"Stop crying, you look ugly when you cry" jaebum joked

"Oppa...seriously what's going on, please tell me so I could understand what you're feeling"

"If I tell to u would you stop crying" jaebum smiled and hugged youngjae again.