I knew that you were going to be one of the hosts for the awards night. I guess it was one of the reasons why I was so nervous that night, apart from the pressure of being nominated. I watched as you stood on the stage with Lee Hwi Jae and Seo Joon-sshi in that Midnight Blue lace dress that made your skin more porcelain like, and I was mesmerized.

            Next thing I knew, it was time for the announcement of the Best Couple Award. People have been telling me all day that the award was already in the bag because everybody loved the drama, but I didn’t want to put that much hope into it. I didn’t even know that I was holding my breath until the names of the winners were announced. I exhaled and turned to look at you, I could tell that you too were surprised with the result, I mean, three couples won. I was feeling the adrenaline from the win, until I saw that Jong Suk took your hand in his. I continued clapping and pretended that there were no needles pricking at my heart. My answers during the interview were extremely short and awkward, that even I, flinch when I recalled them. It wasn’t even because of nerves anymore; it was because your hand was on his arm. I knew that it was petty, I knew that you two are the Darling Couple, and that we’re nothing, but that didn’t stop my heart from aching.

            As you stood a spot away from me, I couldn’t help but wish that I was the one standing beside you. I know that I shouldn’t even think of y