continuation:

Suddenly,he called your real name for the very first time since knowing him.
With tears dripping,he pulled you into a kiss,pecking your lips passionately.
He let go,cupping his hand to your flushed cheeks.

"Butterfly,you're not gonna die,"he gave a pained smile.

You dont seem to understand so he explained carefully.
He had mistaken you for another patient of the same name and illness.

"You're going to get well soon and leave this place with the guy you love..."his voice trailed off and frowned.

Meanwhile,you were frozen on your bed.

"I'm not gonna die?"you asked yet again.

He nodded reluctantly.
You held your chest and let out a long sigh.
You're going to get well!!
But why is Jonghyun so sad?

"Listen,"he sat beside you,"tonight is going to be the last time we see each other.You're not supposed to know about about our existence yet.By the time the sun rise tommorrow,all your memories will...be erased."

Tears fell down upon telling you the truth.
He regretted falling for you.
It bring him much pain to learn of what was going to happen.

You were shaking your head violently,not accepting the fact.

"NO!I love you!How can I forget you easily?How am I going to live life happily without you by my side?"you sobbed.

Before he could say anything,the clock sturck midnight.

Jonghyun pushed you softly on the bed,hugging you from behind.

"I need to go soon...get some sleep,"he whispered,caressing your hair.

He was going to be in more pain than you.
While your memories are going to be forgotten,apparently,his memories won't.
He was going to continue with his life with the events still kept in his thoughts.

"Hush my butterfly..."he sang,putting a spell on you.

Soon,your eyes were shut closed.

"I really loved you,"Jonghyun muttered,giving you one last peck.

He gave you a final look before going off with the teardrops still on his face.

A few hours later,you woke up and was looking around,hoping everything just now was a dream...but no.
Jonghyun had left you.
You will never see him again.
Still longing to see him,the thought of suicide came as an option.

"Don't be reckless please.Find you real true love in this world.My dear butterfly...please remember that I love you eventhough I know that you won't soon."

His voice rang in your thoughts.
Unconsciously,tears flowed down yet again.

You quickly wrote down another entry while he was still known in your mind.

You gave one last look at the seat he once sat on.
There wasn't any trace of him.
Except for one...a feather from his angel wings.
Surpressing the pain you felt,you took it and taped it on the entry.

28 december 2009
Dear diary,
God is benevolent.Please don't make me forget him.
Kim Jonghyun...the love of my life.

With that,you lay on your bed and closed your eyes.
The last of your tears fell down on the hospital bed.
You prayed that your memories would remain intact.

However...
no.

The next day,you wake up with no recollection of him at all.
The diary next to you couldn't help you at all.
You tried very hard to remember whom the handsome looking guy was.

"Kim Jonghyun...?"you thought.

Your hands touched the white feather,feeling an instant peace upon feeling it.
You hoped to find him in the hospital.
If he had always been by your side;he must have been a frequent visitor of this place.

"Butterfly...turn left,"a voice said in your mind.

Unknowingly,you did as it was told.
As you weakly walked past the private wards,you accidentally bumped against someone and fell.

"Omo miss,are you alright?"asked the guy,hoilding out his hand to you.

Apparently,he had rushed here from his concert.
The shinee member was worried for his leader that had fainted.
You took one look at him.
The feather must have been from the outfit.
He pulled you up and you just went to hug him.
Strangely though,the guy didn't move.

The other members called out for him but you both didn't budge from the position.
There was a connection between you two.
His eyes went wide,shock,to see your diary entry on the floor.

Beneath the picture of his 'twin' pecking your cheeks were the captions:

Kim Jonghyun...my angel.
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how was it?:)
I told you its not sad nor happy.
My first time doing a story that is not a romance-comedy XD

28 december 2009
11:57pm
singapore time

silent readers and commentors are appriciated^^