finally after some many years, i decided to write a squel to habits of my heart. i hope you guys will like it. just a warning that there might be some triggers. and i recommend you guys to listen to the song for the best reading exprience. enjoy. (:    Baby Steps       움켜쥔 마음이 자꾸 새어나가 My scrunched up feelings keep seeping out. 숨겨보고 감춰도 모두 흘러나가
I try to hide and cover it but it all comes out.     As warm tears flow down from her eyes, she felt her heart burning in pain. Feeling unable to breathe properly, Chorong reaches a hand up towards her chest, clenching on her shirt as she bit down hard on her bottom lip, trying to stop her tears as she choked back another sob.    Wiping away her tears with her other hand, she looked around her surrounding after walking around aimlessly for god knows how long, looking up she realised that she was near the park that was near their old school. Chorong slowly walked to the usual bench where they used to sit together and talk about everything and anything together. Letting out soft sigh, Chorong slowly shut her eyes as her tears stream down the side of her cheeks.   'Is this really the end? Park Chorong, you really deserve it. This is the pain you deserve.'   8 Years Ago   'Hello! Are you the prettiest girl in the school everyone is talking about? The name is Yoon Bomi. You can call me, anything you want though! So the rumors are true, and you are indeed really beautiful. Can we go for lunch together?' The girl who called herself 'Yoon Bomi' stopped Chorong's track as she was walking to the school's library with her earphones on so she totally didn't heard what the random girl in front of her said.    'Yes?' Chorong frown her brows slightly, taking two steps back before taking off her earphones.    'That's great! Let's go now.' Bomi flashes a wide grin before taking Chorong by the hand and dragging her to god knows where.   'Wha-' Chorong didn't manage to finish her word before she got dragged away by the stranger.   After what seems like endless flight of stairs, they finally reach their destination which to Chorong's surprise it's the school's rooftop which no one would even thought of even taking a step into that place filled with old and dusty furniture that the school doesn't use anymore. Suddenly it hit Chorong that she has been dragged by someone that she completely doesn't know at all to a old dusty and scary roof top. Immediately she pulls her hand away from the stranger.    'Who the hell are you?' Chorong looks slightly scared as she backs away.   'I just told you that you can call me whatever you want!' Bomi beams happily at Chorong before opening the door to the rooftop.    A gush of cooling breeze gently hits Chorong face as the door open up, revealing a very unexpected view for her. Chorong's eyes widen as this wasn't the school rooftop that she has imagined. She could see the view of the city clearly, feeling awed by the sight as she unconsciously got push passed the door before Bomi follow suit and closed the doors behind her. There wasn't any dusty old furnitures, just a small table with chairs and a swing chair that could fit two.   'To earth, Chorong-ssi.' Bomi gently speaks into Chorong's ear from behind, snapping her out of her trance.    'Oh- Wait, who are you again? Seriously and why did you bring me here. A- Are you going to do weird things to me? I-I have a black belt in Hapkido! So don't even try anything weird.' Chorong steps away from the stranger and positions herself defensively.   Bomi chuckles softly at the cute sight in front of her as she shakes her head. 'Adorable.'   She takes a deep breath before continuing, 'Didn't you hear me the first time? My name is Yoon Bomi, but you can call me anything you want! You are here because you agreed to have lunch with me. Oh- for your info I have a black belt in Taekwondo but no, I'm not going to weird things to you. From now on, you are going to be my friend!' Flashing her signature smile again before making Chorong seat down on the chair.    'Yoon... Bomi?'   Present   Remembering how they first met sucessfully put a small smile on Chorong's face before it slowly disappears once again. It has been 8 years since she met the person she loves most in the world.    'Love? Do I love her?' Chorong ponders to herself as she wipe away the remaining tear stains that are left on the side of her cheeks.    After sitting for awhile longer, Chorong finally picks herself up from the bench that she was so reluctant to leave.   'Time to head home, time to head back to reality.' Chorong spoke softly to herself before making her way back to reality.    닿을 수 없는 너를 보면서 As I see you, who I can’t touch, 내 작은 그림자도 들킬까 숨어서
I hide because my small shadow might be seen.   It has been six months and three days since Chorong broke everything she had with Bomi. She felt like death. Everytime she was hanging out with her husband and their friends, she had to act like everything is fine but is it really? Every breath she took, she felt like she was drowning as she watched people around her breathe.    Today again, she went on a double date with her husband and his friend.    'Maybe, just maybe today I can get my mind off her.'   Walking around the mall, she saw her favorite coffee store before excusing herself to go get herself a cup, she really needed it. Entering the shop, she ordered a double shot espresso and quietly waited at a corner for her drink to be made. Suddenly, a familiar laughter entered her ears, she head automatically snapped towards the direction of that familiar sound that she loved so much.   To not much surprise she saw her, but it wasn't just her. It's was her with another girl, holding the hands that once held her so tightly. Immediately Chorong turned around and hid her face, so she wouldn't be seen. Hiding herself before listening to them settle down, she couldn't help it. Chorong finally turned her body slightly, glancing towards the couple.    She could see the smile clearly, that signature smile that made her heart skipped a beat whenever she sees it but this time it's different. She felt her heart clenching at the sight of it because that smile was no longer directed at her. It was for someone else now.    'One double shot espresso is done!'   Hearing her ordering being called, Chorong quietly passed