Jiyong POV

To: Ji

Hey, It's been a long time that I have call you Ji. I will pass all the formal greeting since I meet you quite a lot these few days. I have to tell you something but I don't really dare to tell you face to face, so I choose to tell you through the letter. This will also cut down some awkward moment between the both of us. Actually, I have gained all of my memory back. The good ones and also the bad ones. I don't really dare to tell cause I really enjoy our time whenever we hang out. Telling you means we will stop these hangouts. Call me selfish if you want. I know you still love me, I love you too always and forever. Sandara has told me what had happened to you for the past 5 years. She told me that the first year after I left, you look ty (sorry for the improper language). She told me that you tried to contact me. You suffer every day, not sleeping well, not eating well and just focused on work. She told me you tried to use work to overcome your relationship problem, our problem. The second year, you looked better, you started to accept that I have left. Yet, another problem have occurred, you started to have drinking problem and you started to smoke. You once told me that you hate the smell of the cigarette. I was so shocked when I heard it from Sandara. She said you eat well and sleep well by that time but these problems will affect your health too. They seem to convince you to stop smoking and drinking liquor but that doesn't mean you stop drinking. You still drink just to something more expensive. You started to drink wine but not tasting it, you drink yourself till drunk, very drunk. The third year, you seem to stop these problems slowly but you started to show your anger towards your colleagues. If there is some mistake made by them you will scold them like they're worthless, even is some small mistake. Everyone is afraid of you, they see you as a monster. Sandara has suggested you visit a doctor to overcome your problems, but you never listen. Until the fourth year, you finally accepted this cruel reality and visit a doctor. You finally overcome all the problems. It took 2 years for you to recover or to say overcome every of our problem that caused by me.

Tell you the truth, Jay is not my boyfriend. He's my best friend's husband. Well soon to be husband before she passed away. I think you know her too, her name Jessica. Actually, I was about to attend her wedding with you of course but obviously, I went alone after our break up. Who knows on her wedding day, a car accident happened. She passed away on that day. Jay and I overcome all of these together. The both of us are more like siblings together. Well, my five years are not as bad as yours but it's still bad. I was lost after breaking up with you and after losing my best friend. I was so lost, I don't really know who should I find and talked to. My life in LA was a mess. My daily life seems to repeat it own. Sleep, eat, sit at the park then repeat and repeat. A jobless me, staying around LA a