Donghae's POV

To say I was shock is an understatement. I didn't know he had that much going on. I didn't know he was going through so much pain. I didn't know how much he was hurting. However, in a way, I was glad I asked him that question so he would tell us. But I was also feeling sorry for pushing him into telling us.    He was hurting for all these years. Yet he managed to pretend he was okay. He was right though. I couldn't feel how he had felt or was still feeling. I was always ranked first to second base on looks, I was good at dancing, I could rap and I didn't think my singing was that bad. I never had to go through all the teasing, I never wanted a solo. I was in Sj-m and D&E. D&E allowed me to show more of my voice and myself so I didn't want a solo. The announcement didn't make a difference to me.    I stood up and walked to Ryewook's room, wanting to apologize for pushing him. Standing outside his door, I could hear him crying. My heart broke at the sound of it. He was so lost now. Suddenly, there were sounds of things being thrown on the floor, vases being broken, things being destroyed. My eyes went wide when I finally processed what was going on. I called for everyone to come here as we attempted to talk to our poor maknae.  "Wookie, come on, open the door for us. Let us help you!" Leeteuk frantically said.  "HELP?! How in the whole are you going to help me? Are you able to give me back my dream? My soul that was out along with it? If you can't, don't say you can. I don't need anymore force hope!" He screamed from inside.  Outside, we were all worried, scared and at a loss. Henry wanted to call the manager to let him know what was going on and let him help but Kangin insisted we should confront Ryewook first. Siwon had to leave for a filming but he didn't want to leave with this mess. Kyuhyun was running around the dorm trying to find the key to Ryeowook's room. Leeteuk and Eunhyuk were knocking on Ryeowook's door, trying to convince him that we could help. Heechul was telling us to let him cool down. The rest were anxiously pacing around or just standing there, not knowing what to do.  "I FOUND IT!" Kyuhyun exclaimed. He tried to unlock Ryewook's room as quietly as possible so he wouldn't try to stop us from going in. After he did unlock, he gestured to us that he would attempt to calm Ryeowook down first before the rest of us entered. We all nodded our heads. After all he was the closest to Ryeowook, the one Ryewook trusted most and his boyfriend.    Kyuhyun's POV  I slowly entered the room as I surveyed the surrounding. The whole room was d