"I'm okay." 

  I've been repeating the same words like one million times. Although this words came out easily from my mouth, but my sister knows that I'm dying inside.  It's been a month without minho, I miss him, I miss him so much, so damn much, there's not a second went through for me without thinking about him, I couldn't explain how hard it is for me to face everyone in my school without minho beside me, but I can tell that it was extremely hard, really really hard that sometimes I just wanna jump off the cliff and end my life, but there's still a little hope growing inside me, stopping me from doing anything stupid.   Thanks to Siwon oppa, he went to Japan two weeks after the day that minho left. He told me every single things about minho. He didn't doing fine without me, siwon oppa said minho came home drunk one day and said he missed me. It was enough to made my day and keeping me survive. My best friends didn't want me to give up, my sister didn't let me move on, the brother of my loved one didn't let me losing my hope. They're giving me strength to face tomorrow. And I won't give up either.    "What are you going to do if minho won't come back to Korea?"    Me, Yoona, Nana, Luna and Amber are gathering together in the cafeteria.  A soft sigh escaped. "If a week more, and minho won't come back to me..." I paused, giving everyone a look. "I will go to Japan."    "Woahhhhhhhhh."    A loud cheer is coming from them, I smile. I'm serious, I will really do it.  "I can't wait to see you both being together again."  Nana exclaimed. I smile sadly.  Will that day ever come?   It's not that I forget about him, it's just my conscious, it told me that minho won't forgive me. But even if there's no hope for me, I will not give up, my heart only opens for him, he's the only person who could make my heart warming, it is always him, and it has to be him.    End of pov  Author's pov :    "Hey minho."    A manly voice greeted to a man who looks slightly drunk. Minho is inside one famous bar in Japan. After he arrived, he didn't do anything. Siwon told his parents everything about Minho, his parents didn't let minho do anything either, they love minho so much since he's their youngest child, so they want minho to be completely fine first before allowed him to do anything he wants to do in the future.    "Have a drink, hyung."  Minho said, pouring a wine into a glass for another man who sit beside him.  "Are you drunk?"  The mysterious man asked. Minho smiles bitterly as he shakes his head.  "What do you think, Changmin hyung?"  Minho finished the rest of wine on his glass. Changmin looks at minho pitifully.   "Why won't you go back, Minho?"    He's slightly drunk, but he heard everything, he understood everything his best friend meant.  "Do you think that I am able to forgive her and trust her again?"  Changmin shook his head for an answer. As an older, he had experienced many things than the younger expected.  "But look at yourself now, Minho." There was a long pause before he continued. "You lost yourself while trying to be fine for everyone."    Minho drinks his wine again, finished it in a blink. He thought about everything that Changmin said.    "We have been friend since you were five, do you think that I don't know anything about you? Even the day you told your parents that you were fine, I know that it was totally a lie. Even now, you can't forget her, you're missing her. Every minutes, every seconds passed by, there's not a time that you are breathing without a thought of her... Choi Minho...."    Changmin raised his voice, grabbed minho by his collar as minho was about to drink again, making Minho faced him.  "Go back! You idiot. You still love her-!"    "I have never said that I stopped loving her, and I have never said that I am happy without her either...."  Changmin released Minho as soon as he saw a sparkle of tear that's about to fall from his friend's eyes. "I just need time, hyung."    Minho slowly confessed.    "I don't know when will I can accept this truth that the girl who I loved and wanted to spend my whole life with, just tricked me, fooled me, loved me just because she wanted to win a bet... She betrayed my trust for people... She made me stopped believing in anything and anyone."    Changmin sensed a heart-breaking feel just by his voice. Minho reached for a glass as he drinks again, wanted to stop the pain that keep increasing every minutes.  "But Minho...."    Changmin is looking at minho, he patted Minho's shoulder a few times wanting to comfort him.  "Can I ask you some question?"    "Go on, hyung."  Minho answered, finished the rest of wine all in one.    "How much do you love her?"   The first question came out from Changmin. Minho smiles bitterly then he answers.    "So much, so much that it hurt myself."    "Will you able to stay still if you see her crying?"   "No, I wouldn't let her cry, she deserves to be happy and I'd do anything to make her happy."    "She has hurt you more than you ever imagined before, do you still love her, now??"   "Yes, I do. I keep thinking about her, all day and all night passed by...."    Changmin smiles softly. "If you know that she has a cancer on the final stage, what would you do?"    "What do you mean?? Is she okay now? Are you serious about this? Is it just a question or does she really suffered from a cancer!!!!"  Minho sudden reacted, causing the older to pats his back.  "I was just asking minho-ah..."  Said Changmin. "And look! you couldn't stand seeing her cries, you are worrying about her, I could see this, you love her so much, you love her more than you love yourself,Minho. Isn't it enough for you to forgive her?"    This time, minho looks like he's in a deep thought. He doesn't say anything, he lets the slow music in the bar to comfort him.    "Follows what your heart told you, not your brain. If you can't stand seeing her crying, then don't let her go. There's also a Japanese quote saying 'everyone deserves a second chance' and I'm sure you heard about this before. Think about it again,Minho. Do it now before you're going to regret it later."    And then Changmin walked out of the bar leaving the young man sitting still inside the bar alone.      On the other hand.    "What are you doing, unnie?"  Krystal asked, another three day passed, she misses him terribly.  "I got a call from Siwon oppa, he said he would come back today, so I will go to pick him up."    Krystal gapes, staring at her sister with an excited expression.  "Will Minho come??"  Jessica stared at her sister back for a moment before she mutters. "Yes..."    The younger girl feels her heartbeat is increasing in a very fast speed, like it's her first time being with him.    "H-how........."   "But Minho told not to let you come to pick them, they will come to our house right after I picked them up with me."    Krystal couldn't stop her curiousness.  Why doesn't he let her go to pick him too? Did he really hate her? But if he hates her, why does he still come to her house?  These sort of questions doesn't leave her brain, she keeps on thinking as she can't help to meet him either.    "Calm down, okay? Dress well, I'm sure minho has made up his mind, if not he wouldn't come back."  Jessica has her right, krystal nods her head a few times, doesn't know what to respond.  "Wait for me, I will go to pick them now, everything will be all right, baby."  The older sister kisses the younger as she gave her a very warm hug to relaxed her younger sister.   "Thank you, Unnie. Drive safe and come home quickly."    Krystal is waiting for Jessica to come back impatiently. The thought of meeting him after the-feel-like-an-age without him got her heart racing. She in the same time