"Why?" Jessica would always ask. It's not that she doesn't know the answer at all. She's not dumb, nor dense, nor an idiot. She just wanted to sort things out. To clarify the issue so just they could go on with their lives less awkward. But that seems so ideal. It would never be possible because Taeyeon won't give a damn. She adjusted herself closer to the girl but the girl moved away almost immediately. They were sharing the same bed but it seems like they're million lightyears away from each other. What happened to us? Was the question she has been dying to ask, but never got the strength to do so. They were always like this. They have been like this for God knows how long now. Even herself could not remember when was the last time they talked about themselves. She could not remember when was the last time the girl greeted her, called her, even texted her. She could not remember when was the last time the girl asked what she's feeling. If she's okay, if she's troubled, if she's hurting. She won't remember anymore. Because she was the one who ended it all. "Tae .. until when will you treat me like this?" Jessica meekly asked as she was staring at Taeyeon's back who was sitting nonchalantly at the edge of their bed. One minute, two, three minutes .. She got no answer. Just like before. But she wants this time to be different. She won't budge. "Tae please .." She moved closer once again, making sure that the girl won't try to escape anymore, she wrapped her slender arms around the girl's petite waist tightly. Locking her in a warm back hug. "Say something. Even just a simple I Hate You, or a simple Damn You. Just please .. say something." Still not moving an inch, she felt victorious when Taeyeon miraculously speaks. "You know we'll never be okay no matter how hard you insist," her voice was the coldest she has ever heard. And she knows it's just for her, "Things will never be the same anymore. You should have known that." She was damn right. She should know that. The coldness that Taeyeon was giving would never be any warmer and she should just accept that. Because she knows she could not do anything to melt the girl. The ice within her heart was getting thicker all the time and the only person who could melt it was indeed a coward. She was a coward. "You never tried to settle it. You never listened to me so how could you say we'll never be okay anymore when you didn't even try to work things out?" Jessica's voice got louder, but that didn't take Taeyeon's composure. "I won't dare. I can't," the older girl mumbled, "You know why? Because I can't even say your name. It's funny, right? I can't say your name because I feel so nostalgic just by hearing it from others. I can't open this issue up because I could never understand how unfair you were." How unfair you were. Jessica ran out of words. Everything seems like a dagger and they're all stabbing her senseless. She just wanted to compromise, but she never knew this was as hard as the hardest hard. She tightened her hold on Taeyeon. This was the least thing she could do. "And I can't look at you in the eyes .. You know I can't. I just can't. Because I know if I do that, I'll just go back to where I was and who I was before. I'll just go back to you." She wanted this. She needed this. But why is it that there's something inside her that's holding back. She should be contented. She should start walking away now. But why does her heart tells her to do otherwise? "Can I ask you something?" Taeyeon untangled her arms from her waist and turned around to face her. Yearnin