Sandeul opened his parent’s bedroom and the memories about them hit him so hard but still, he tried to be strong as what his parents always told him. He walked slowly and sat on the bed, the scent of his parents was still strong there, Sandeul looked around and found a letter on the nightstand, as he saw the handwriting he was sure it was his ‘mom’ who wrote it, with heart beating fast, Sandeul opened the letter and read it

Dear Cho Kyuhyun….

Today I had a bad day… but you weren’t there beside me

And it just makes it worse….

You’ve told me many times for the past months

That this time will come to us and you told me

To be strong and act as usual as if you were around

I remember we fought because of it…

I told you I can’t live without you and I really serious about that

Now you can see right?

How miserable I am on your funeral day?

Even I’ve prepared well but still… it hurts a lot…

I miss you… stupid… but… rest well….

Sandeul wiped the tears that trickled down on his face, his hands were trembling while reminiscing his parents, despite the tears that flooded his cheek, he still made sure that none of it dropped on Sungmin’s letter. Sandeul walked towards the balcony and sat there for a moment, tried his best to dry his tears while looking at the view out there, he saw the view his ‘mom’, Sungmin liked the most, sun set from his parent’s balcony really the best, and Sandeul remembered how often he spent his afternoon there with Sungmin chatted over a cup of tea that Sungmin liked the most. Sandeul scanned through the letter and decided to continue reading it

Day two without you…

How are you there kyu? Are you happy?

I bet you aren’t, cause you said before to me

That a world without me is not a world and you hate it

Although sometimes you went for a business trip

But I never felt sad like this, because at least I know you will come back

Not like now… I feel so lost… and empty

Sandeul felt a pair of warm arms hugged him from behind, he turned around and found his husband stood in front of him now, looked at him with concerned on his eyes

“Are you okay?” Baro asked gently and wiped the tears that again flooded his eyes, Sandeul shook his head didn’t even try to hide it, eventually Baro would know, so why bother to lie to him “Baby…” Baro hugged Sandeul and caressed his back and let Sandeul cried on his shoulder “I’m not going to tell you to stop crying cause I know it’s really hard for you to lost both of them in one week, so… just cry, let all your feelings out and you will feel better after this” Sandeul nodded on what Baro said and let all his feelings out

Day 5 without you…

Sandeul stayed with me this week,

I feel so bad to let him know how I feel so empty right now without you

When actually Sandeul is still here, cheer me up and do his best for me

I’m sorry kyu… but now I’ve learnt that I should still stay strong

For Sandeul and Baro, looking at them now really reminds me a lot of us

And of course I won’t forget the way you treat Baro in the past

Especially when he said he wanted to marry our son

You were really really really scary Cho Kyuhyun…

But it was so nice of you when eventually you accepted him in our family

And let him to replace us to take care of Sandeul

I remember you said you hope two of them will be happy together forever

I hope so too kyu… I hope so too…

This time instead of crying, Sandeul chuckling over the letter remembered how his father reacted towards his husband when he introduced Baro for the first time but Sandeul knew that was the way his father showed his love to him. Baro smiled while looking at Sandeul face now, a little bit of laugh made his face looked better, his face was as pale as white sheet before but now as he continued reading Sungmin’s letter, his face almost looked normal.

“I promise ….” Baro whispered gently while looking at Sandeul’s face

“Huh?”

“I promise to your father and mother that I will make you happy forever” the tears swamped on Sandeul’s eyes now after Baro continued of what he said “On the day of our wedding, and on the day they gone, I told them not to worry about you, because I will be always on your side… forever” Sandeul looked at Baro with watery eyes but he flashed a grateful smile towards Baro

“Thank you…” Sandeul said with trembling voice and Baro hugged him again

“Forever”

Last day without you…

Kyu, today is day seven without you…

But it’s also the last day without you

I don’t know, but I just have that feeling kyu….

The feeling when I feel that God will bring us together again

As I saw by my own eyes how happy Sandeul is now

And the way Baro treat him nicely, I know that he can survive

Even without us, and I hope he will always continue to be happy

As he knows how we both really love his smile, I hope he will continue to smile everyday

We will continue to watch him from above right Kyu?

Although not on his side but we will continue to monitor him, together

Alive or not our love for him will never die

And I know he knows about it

Because we’ve spent 25 years together, to tell him how much we love him

I hope he will always keep it on his mind and heart

Well… I guess my time is coming soon kyu…

Don’t forget to hug me when we meet later

Cause I miss you so much

And after that we can spend the rest of our endless life together, forever

I love you Kyu… see you soon…

p.s. Sandeul… I’m truly sorry to leave you alone without parents in this world

But I know Baro will take care of you well

I love you… I love you so much… take care baby

And… don’t forget to smile, I’m going to miss you

Love – Mom and Dad

The tears were unbearable, Baro hugged Sandeul tightly and whispered him some comfort words, those simple things he could do to ease Sandeul’s mind. After few minutes of crying, Sandeul let go Baro’s hug and wiped the tears on his face

“Mom don’t want to see my tears, he wants to see my smile” Sandeul said, trying to be strong and put on a warm smile that always flutters Baro’s heart

“You don’t have to do that by today, I know it’s hard to smile with all these things going through for you” Baro caressed Sandeul’s hand, Sandeul shook his head

“I will never force myself, because I know my parents will be sad if I do it forcefully, this smile is just to give me some spirit, from now on I will live without them beside me, I need this smile to make me strong and to reminds me about them” Sandeul turned around and saw the sky had turned dark but his heart feels lighter after reading his mom’s letter “even until the end, mom never forget to write dad a letter” Sandeul smiled while holding the letter, Baro walked towards him and hugged him from behind

“I hope we can be like them, they are my idol” Sandeul chuckled after heard what Baro said

“Even after my dad kicked you out 5 years ago?”

“That makes me admire him more to be honest” Baro smiled when he felt Sandeul chuckling “It’s getting cold outside, let’s go inside and eat our dinner, you need to take care of yourself as you have our baby on your tummy now” Baro caressed Sandeul’s stomach gently, and thought it was really tragic that Sandeul didn’t even have time to tell his parents that he was pregnant with their grandchild, Sandeul nodded, he held Baro’s hand walked inside his parent’s room, put the letter back on the nightstand and left the room with lighter mind

“I love you mom and dad… rest well” Sandeul whispered while smiling softly before closed his parent’s bedroom and followed his husband to dining room